Do you ever 'forget' that you were fat?

The further you move away from your sugery date, the closer you 'walk' toward your weight and body goal - do you lose sight of where you came from?  Does your 'mind's eye' create another self image for you and you have a hard time recalling what the old you felt and looked like?

I find that I cannot remember what I felt like over 4 years ago - the other day I was putting on jeans and grabbed a belt - twisted around to put it through the loop holes and realize that I can now turn around and see my OWN azz!!!!  And it felt like the most natural thing to me......

I also get surprised by commentary from dudes - now that I'm on the dating scene, it's wierd to hear their opinion - I never really had a dude talk about my body when I was big, so it's strange - "Get your small, fine azz over here" - HUH??  Oh!!!  Me????    or 'Girl, you are skinty'  Oh, for real???  I actually PREFER to be referenced as 'thick'...... that's just sexy to me......

When I was big, though - I never looked in my head to myself like I looked in the mirror - if that makes sense - like in the Matrix - I 'painted' over the reality with what *I* felt like - which is what I look like now - so I can't really remember what it used to be like.......

Anybody else struggling with this???

i'm just the opposite.  i'm not even two years out, so that could be my problem.  i don't *see* the new me like others do.  i still see myself as big, regardless of the fact that i can wear sizes i never imagined i'd fit my fat azz in.  hopefully, this side of the struggle will be over when i'm as far out as you.

Good Morning Mack!

Interesting question, but my answer is rather short, NOPE never forget I was fat!  I still have "fat girl" mentality and I still DON'T see what others see.  Yes, I love the compliments, shopping in regular stores, I love the way clothes look on me, BUT TO ME, I am still fat!  But sometimes, I think if I keep that mentality, I won't blow up in my head!!!  LOL

I wanted to edit my reply but my pc is acting up. 

Do I forget? In my Katt Williams voice, "Not Never!"  I still think of myself as thick.  People twist their mouth up when I say that. Well compared to really skinny folk I am.  I guess I am average size now....what is that?

I'm only 13 months out, so my perspective is a little different. I still feel fat. I know that I've come a very long way as I've lost over 130 lbs. I've lost a person. I know that people think I look totally different, but I live with me, so I still see the same fat person from 13 months ago.

Just last week, I came to the realization that a little self acceptance is in order here. When am I going to accept that I've lost over 130 lbs? When will I come to terms with the comments/attention from men that I never received before? So, the mental work is in order and it is constant work.

I think that in a way, I am afraid to forget. I don't ever want to go back to what I was before.

"When I was big, though - I never looked in my head to myself like I looked in the mirror - if that makes sense"

I know EXACTLY what you mean by this.  I was just looking a picture of myself at my sisters wedding 2 yrs ago (over 100+ pounds ago), and I looked like Humpty Dumpty in a black suit.  Just terrible.  And I can't believe that was me, and what's more scary, is that when that WAS me, I didn't see that person in the mirror.  If I did, I would have stayed home never to see the light of day, LOL. 

It's amazing how differently I view my bigger self now, then when I was still big. 

WHEW Chile - some of the pics on my page got me saying 'WTF???!!!!'  That damn ponytail..... I can't BELEIVE I let myself believe THAT was fly..... LOL!!!! 

I haven't been skinny since i was 10. So.....    

 

 "Get your small, fine azz over here" - HUH??  Oh!!!  Me????    or 'Girl, you are skinty'  Oh, for real??? 

Girl this is too funny. This has happen to me on several occassion and I had your same expression. Yes for some reason I still see the fat person I know it's a mind thing but I do and it must be normal considering everyone else i feeling the same way. Even though we are getting the compliments it's just weird.