5 wk update and venting a little

Okay today makes 5 weeks out and my appetite is back full blast! Even with my appetite being back I have trouble trouble i mean trouble eating certain foods. So needless to say certain things have been removed from my diet from now on. Things are progressing slowly. So much is going on that I have not walked this week. Today I dont care what happens my butt i****ting the pavement and getting it done. I was doing the couch 2 5k program but I will restart that prayerfully next week.

My family grew by 1 on Saturday my sister decided that she no longer wanted her 11yr old daughter and brought her to me. The house is a little crazy because I just moved into a smaller place only 2 bdrms. My son is not liking the fact that he has to share. Trying to get this child onto my insurance this week was meet w/roadblocks because I dont have something from the court system. In the mean time between time my sister has not given me the child's meds breathing machine or anything! I feel so overwhelmed right now but I was able to get her enrolled in school w/the notarized paper her mom gave me. Thank God for the small things. I've missed a couple days of work trying to get her in school and get uniform tops. I have been comfort eating because I am stressed to know end. Already couldnt sleep at night so you know it is worse now.

I know that God has worked everything out and nothing happens by chance. Even though I can't hear his voice I am trusting his plan. I know he will bring us through and we continue to bless each of us. I pray that God removes the hositlity I have with my sister I really do. Her thing is she is struggling and cant see her way out. Well I am struggling as well as most ppl are, I now have someone else to feed, clothe and provide for but I am trusting God. It makes me so angry that now she is home free no obligations but herself and still wont send the meds and stuff. Sorry to vent like this but I am so full... But today I am getting back on track. I dont have to listen to her yell and scream about this that and the other Shay is safe and loved. oh yea and my niece will be 12 on 11/16 what a birthday present to hear your mom say I dont want you anymore. Lord have mercy on my sister please. I gotta get this girl in some counseling but w/o insurance it is looking grim. I applied for medicaid dont know if she will qualify a friend walked me through it the app was so freaking long. Yall please pray for not just the kids and I but my sister as well.
Thank God trouble dont last always!!

Weightloss is back on track today will be a great day in Jesus name. Please pray for us.

Oh my goodness.  Your plate is so full.  (((((HUGS)))))  I know what it's like to have your family suddenly grow.  When my husband's ex died three years ago, I found myself in the position of having to raise two kids that I barely knew.  Even after all this time we are still trying to get adjusted. 

Girl, I understand.  It turns your whole world upside down.  You will get through this and God will bless you for being there for you niece. 

I really dont know how it will get better but I know that I will get through somehow someway. The anger is what is getting the best of me right now it almost consumes me because my sis should know better. Girl bless your heart raising 2 kids you barely know. There has to be a silver lining in this for you and I.

God will bless you for your sacrifices.   When she's all grown up, don't be surprised if your sister gets jealous when your neice includes you & excludes you from the important events in her life.

God had my parents take in 2 nonrelated unknown children.  One had a horror story background & was being raised by her grandmother.  She's 27 now,  excelled in school was a star high school & college athelete, is a teacher & working & now working on her masters.  She was officially adopted a couple of years ago, after her grandmother died.  She was 11 when she was taken in.

The other was the first to graduate high school in his family & is now a seargant in the army.  He was always close to my brothers, as they are only a few weeks apart in age, but always was standoffish to the rest of the family.  He was 13-14 when the Judge ordered my mom to take guardianship of him.  He was involved in a teenage gang rape of a white girl & by the grace of God didn't get anything except taken out of his alcoholic mother's custody.  As, he was the youngest & the rest of the boys admitted that he was a bystander.

The day after he graduated he left without a word & never let anyone know that he'd enlisted. But, I think his time away made him realize how God had blessed him with a 2nd family, as now he's in touch regularly, comes to visit when he's on leave & even noted us as his relatives on FB.


In the state of IL, if you show you can get assistance if you are related to a child that is now in your custody.  That is something you can look into.

What may not agree with you now can agree with you later.  So, try those foods again in 3 month increments.   I couldn't do cucumbers at first, then I tried it skinless & was fine, now I can eat them with the skin on without any issues whatsover.  Same wit h beef, initially it was a no-no got sick behind it & now, I'm fine.

I am the adoptive mom of an unrelated sibling group of 6. My husband died 1 year into the process. I can assure you your rewards will be many. Yes, there will be challenges for you,your other family members and your niece. The one to pray 4 the most is your sis. You cannot avoid reaping what you sow.(what goes around really does come around and usually with interest) My kids biological dad died alone and he was identified by his dental records because he was so decomposed. He had 6 adult children that he had signed his rights away to, at the time of his death( 5 I adopted and another 1/2 brother) anyone of them could have given him a glass of water or called 911 but he threw them away. So very sad. Your niece will have problems. No escaping that, but we serve a God that is able. I pray that he grant you the "peace that passes all understanding'. it will keep your heart and your mind.
Grace and Peace
Jo

i just wanted to give you a hug ((((((HUG))))) and i know the storm is rough right now but, through it all you will survive!

I just want to say thank u! I decided to stop dwelling things that aren't going to change and focus on what's important giving Shay stability and love. Thanks again