Was trying to focus on something positive!

Previous blood work had indicated autoimmune problems....they had ran more specific tests and that was okay. Few months ago I had unexplained back pain and had to have physical therapy because I was having issues sitting for prolonged periods of time. So then all was okay for a while....started having stomach pains...my surgeon put me on prevacid and wants EGD. So on another front...I saw my primary because I have started to have scalp problems...sores in my scalp that bleed and are very painful. I had scalp biopsy today and the dermatologist now brings up autoimmune again...wants to rule out Lupus. Just glad that I have someone by my side that is being very supportive. ..because to be totally honest my family of origin isn't worth shioot. Doesn't matter to me that I have not met some of you all in my life but you give me strength rather you know it or not....your stories, your messages inspire me to hold on. I get so tired of posting the depressing stuff but so be it. I am just praying that regardless of what is wrong with me....I get grace to see my girls through school.

 It's hard to go through things and not knowing who to talk to it about.  I remember years ago being so ill I really but things in order wanted to see my girls grow up.  There is this prayer warrior in church. The day before I was due to do to the Dr. office she  asked if I'd been ill. I had lost so much weight I looked like I had WLS surgery.
She told me tomorrow you are going to find out what is wrong with you and everything is going to work out. I'm not that prayer warrior but I a believer that you will be OK. Praying for you a speedy recovery for all your illness.
It took them almost 20years to diagnose Fibromyagia.
P.S. right now my whole family is so turn up side down I really have to step out of the box/or go next door for someone to talk to.

Thanks Kathleen,

You know...I have quite a few people (outside of my family)  that I can talk to about what goes on with me.  I don't mind sharing about things I have gone through and survived...but when it comes to things I am currently through...I really don't like to burden others...I know we are ALL going through something at one time or another. Writing stuff on this board is the equavalent of journaling to me...get the feelings out....but the plus side is that you might get some good feedback or positive words to help keep you inspired. You gave that to me just now...reading your words. Thank you for taking the time to write them.  Hugs.

Who's report will you believe?  No, I'm not joking here.  Who's report, the doctors or Gods?  I'm not talking about some sister super christian-eez crap either.  When my husband was diagnosed with cancer this past January, I KNEW God had healed him and it didn't matter what the @#%^ they told us. I knew he was healed.  We were standing on Gods word.  Every night I read healing scriptures over him. ( I will send them to you on the BL if you like.  Just let me know) and I prayed over him every night.  As he fell to sleep, that is what he heard and God's word sunk deep into his heart and he KNEW he was healed too.  During this, he received Jesus as his Lord and Savior.  God has a plan.  

My husband had a NASTY, HUGE tumor removed (any bigger, it would have needed a birth certificate) but he never needed chemo or radiation, which surprised every single doctor!!  The original report was that the cancer had spread. Gods report said it didn't.  When they opened him, it had not spread but was contained.  God's report is all that matters.  God's plan was to save my husbands mortal life and internal life.  

Jesus died so you would be healed.  By his strips you are healed!! By the blood of the lamb of God you are healed.  Anything beyond that, is a lie.  So don't believe it.  Stand on God's word.  Again, God's report is the only one that matters.  I'm lifting you in prayer sweetie.

Brenda

Thanks Brenda!

Yes...there are days when I don't claim nothing but the healing but every now and then a negative thought creeps in. I consider myself more spiritual than religious but the thing that I believe in are very simple. I believe that Jesus existed and gave us an example to live a good life....even though we all fall short. I believe in a higher power...one that is very personal to me...and does give me strength.  Most important of all....I do believe in the power of prayer...not so much for the outcomes that may result but the way it changes one's attitude to turn things over to the higher power and also gain strength knowing that others do care.  I do know and have witnessed the impact that a POSITIVE frame of mind can have on ones health and overall well being. I am going to try my best to keep that positive frame of mind. For today...this moment...I am claiming the healing. Thanks for your support...its much appreciated!!!  

Wishing you the best.  Take care of yourself.

Thank you So Blessed. I just peeped your profile...you have a beautiful family!! Take care.

Wishing yout he best Lisa!

Thanks Michelle.....I always like seeing your avie....you look so relaxed and as if you are just taking things in stride. Have a good one.  

There are times when support from those you"know online" is more valuable than the support system you have with those you really know.  No matter how tight, no one wants to hear your woes every single time you have a need.  Thats what online communities are for.  We sign in ready to lend support.

Just know that although most autoimine disorders are a challenge to live with every day, they are almost always manageble chronic disorders.  You'll still be there for your girls except in the rarest of cir****tances.  Sending up prayers for you.