Piggyback from Mack's FB Post & Lee's Comment

Again that is your journey

I believe we have a choice as well....take for example my daugther, living a hard life, hellish life, lost her youngest child and all, yet chooses to not seek comfort in the LOVE of her family..I mean I gave her everything (wouldn't give my only son though)...her journey choices use to hurt...don't anymore though..I respect her journey and got over myself, it really wasn't about me....I don't agree with what she does but I still love the hell outta her (how fitting that saying is *smile*)....and the day I open my arms once again to her...isn't the day she has to necessarily humble herself to me, live a life *I* say is correct, or I tell her "I told you so"....it is a day when I just see my child thankful and happy without guilt

I hope I just made sense....LMAOOOOO I have a tendency to ramble when I get passionate...LOL

Yes, your mothers heart came through loud and clear. It won't be necessary for her to return to you humble. I am sure you of all people can feel the depth of hurt she is feeling. You carried her under your heart for 9 months and risked your own life to bring her here. I am sure as any mother you wish you could take her hurt and make it all better.  Loss is so hard, grief can be impossible. I was married for 8 years. My husband was my best friend and the love of my life. I nearly lost my mind (and my faith) when he died. It is a process to make your way back when you suffer great loss. You always feel the loss yet life (in most instances) forces you to live through it and go on. I had 6 small children we had adopted so my grieving had to be postponed to provide a quality of life for my children. 15 years later I am still standing and it is only by the grace of the God we have been talking about. I pray you see that day when that daughter falls in your arms and recieves the healing of the love you have for her.
Grace and peace
jo
PS passionate is good. The harshness of life has robbed so many people of their passion. It is a great force for good.

Okay

eta: and for the record I am NOT hurt by the actions of my daughter...it might sound cold, but it is very very true

I know that I don't know not 1 person who is "perfect", not struggling with some ish, got a ish,or whatever.., not even the preachers behind your pulpits nor the pope himself. Err body is dealing with SOMETHING..

I can say and proudly say that I am a christian. Yes, I've been raised in church all my life- but that doesnt mean I'm going to be raised "perfect". My home girls including my hubby thinks that I am a straight fool, crazy, aint got no sense-and is reminded that almost err week.. But that's only when I need to be. I honestly can say that I was 9 mos pregnant, walked out of bible study, kicked off my heels and was going to whip a mofo behind in front of err body. And then had hubby acting a fool too!! lol  But then i got convicted. Not because of what I wanted to do cause I wanted to whip her and repent later, but I was convicted of how i reacted and where i reacted-although folks understood why i did what i did. . So i repented to GOD (and nobody else)and asked  HIM for forgiveness..

But that doesnt mean that Im healed from anger!! Hell, it seems to get worse by the day with me.. Dealing with busted baby daddies, Crazy and lazy a'z  at work, hell crazy family members..But I dare not judge anybody. But I am striving to do right-not be perfect.

As far as the churches- that's a no-win situation. You have people blasting churches because they prefer not to allow people in their churches who do not wear long dresses, no piercings, no tatoos, stockings on their legs etc. basically  "sin free"-as they see it And then you have those churches who is being blasted cause they accept anyone and everyone-even those of us that come right after clubbing with cigarette smoke in our hairs/clothes, etc.. yep, yep, that's some of us!! !! lol..  So you basically wont find a perfect church either.. Only one that you're comfortable with and can get a word from...