Hold my feet to the fire please! Accountability Mission Check In

Thank you!

  I'm up almost 3 lbs and my body water % is up 5%.  Damn!  I over did it on the water yesterday but of course I was thirsty since my water had been short the previous days.  Note to self, stop fkcuing up on the water intake. 

My surgeon lowered my goal so I have an additional 13 lbs to loose.  He expects goal by my 12 month follow up.  That's nearly 28.8 lbs over the next five months, excluding the water weight.   I hope that despite my bloted waistline I did loose body fat this week.  I'll know for sure when the tide goes out and my water level returns to normal. 

I was close to spot on yesterday. Approximate numbers: 1200+ calorie burn, 1200 calories eaten, 1300 calorie deficit.  112 oz liquid vs my max of 90 per the cardiologist of which about 60 oz was plain water.  Protein 122/ carbs 100g, net 73g/ fats 38g  Net carbs are high. I had an unscheduled 100 cal bag of popcorn.  All supplements taken, yea.

Today's menu:
Protein shake
Dreamfields pasta w/ peperoni & cheese
Lamb & greens
Tuna salad kit
Pork & salad
Protein bar
Protein pudding

I wasn't very hungry yesterday so two feeding turned into shakes.  Hopefully that will happen again today.  RNY has not cured me of the desire to graze so its small meals all day for me but I'm working on it.

Is there a message here for me today?  Here I am mulling over why, if I taste just one, I want to eat it all even when my pouch is full.  I plan 2-3 oz feedings so I can graze and stay within my calorie count.

Now today Faith, Mack Mama, and BBSpecial each demonstrate how yesterday they had a treat in moderation.  Each knew when to stop and did.  Is this just a coincidence?  Hmmmmnn.   

Hey I have been in your shoes before, but you can do it. Lately I convince myself by saying...if I have more than a taste then it is going to show up on my waist (not necessarily the waist but you get the idea).  I think I read your post that you have about 28 pounds to lose.  Break it up and say I want to lose 5-7 pounds in the next 30 days so it doesn't seem so overwhelming. Thinking of it this way has worked for me. 

you goofy!!!!  LOL

To be honest - I keep my things to a minimum because of how I buy them.  Those Famous Amos were in the individual bags - not that big azz BOX.  the box IS cheaper but I KNOW ME.... Imma keep going till the end.  So I pay a lil extra to keep my brain in check.

With other things - it's all about size.  There's a hershey graham treat bar that i LOVE - it's 260 calories and it's HUGE!  I know I can happily munch/graze thru that sucker on my workout days as my treat to myself. 

It's taken a while for me to target things like this, but I have a lil list in my head of what I can accomodate or not - so when I do graze out - I keep it under 350 calories.

Ms Faith, Ms Mack Mama you're right ladies as usual. 

Six lbs a month will get me there and thats 1.5 lbs a week. Portion control is the key forv treats.  If I adjust my calorie deficit to bounce between one and two pounds a week I can do this and have a treat twice a week with calorie and carb cycling.  My fear is how many 100 cal packs can I eat.  Pehaps I'll store treats in the gararge or attic. 

I just know that it took me 2 months to get rid of 5 pounds but only took me 2 days to gain it. So with that being said I put myself on a budget (eating budget). I'm only allowed certain treats during the week and that's it. I don't wanna deprive myself and go on a binge and eat everything in site so I just do it in moderation.

Plus I work with this young lady at work maybe in her early 20's and she a big girl. I was there once myself but I don't eat like she does. I look at the stuff she eats and it gives me a quick reality check. 

Maybe a bad example is just what I need. 

I'm fine at the buffets, bu****ching people shovel it all in and how fast the tables turn over has always been a turn off.  I slowly savor in my gluttony.  Perhaps a buffet periodically so I can watch the feeding frenzy is part of my solution.