Cop a Squat....I got sumtin to say!
Good morning Family,
It has been a running joke for years that I make long post, I do, so the joking is all in fun. Lately, I have had few words....so much going on in my life.
First let me thank all my peeps for loving on me for my birthday, i so felt the love and needed to feel it because the people in my life(visible) dont know how to love me and I except that. SO once again Thank you. You keep a girl moving on and moving forward.
Well Actually my birthday was not what I wanted, not what I envisioned but just the same it was a blessing. 1) I turned 50....that is awesome...GOD is GOOD to me. 2) I was tired and exhausted(we will talk about that) but I pressed my way. 3) for the first time in the history of my life. My little brother (rich) took me out to dinner and it was an enjoyable event. Now that was new, different and good.
None of my plans came together, but I found away to be grateful with what did come from it. I am living with my mother who turned 84 last monday and I have learned that I do not want to become my mother. She and I or a lot alike, she has been selfless all her life, she has given, given, given and now things should be coming back to her but her attitude stinks and sucks so bad that no one really wants to be around her. I do not want that for me. BTW she is a manipulator that does not help either and she made sure that she did not acknowledge my birthday....She did everything she could to get me to call her on it and I refused. So that was my challenge of the day. GOD was good to me and I refused to buy into her program she does enough everyday to bring a sistah down. what I am saying is I love her, will do anything for her but because i know she is still in her right mind I am letting her make her choices...It has been a strain but I am not crossing her will, so when she wants to be the martyr I let her play that role. So sad when you want to bless someone and they refuse the blessing because they want you to feel down with them.
Moving on..... I had an accident a couple of months back that pretty much knock me off my horse so to speak. Well the end results is I must have neck surgery if I want to keep using my legs and arms. That is the cold truth alot more with it but that is the gist of it. Pray for me while I try to get this set up.
I have delayed my Reconstructive surgery until I can get this taken care of.
Meanwhile here is some very interesting news. Everybody knows that when I started losing weight I lost a lot of weight in a very small window. 9 months to a year I managed to lose the weight. I managed to keep it off since and it will be soon five years. Meanwhile in the past few months, since I went through the foreclosure, the move and all the drama that has come after it I managed to gain some weight. about 20lbs.
I know I should be really upset and crazy....I am not....I learned something recently about my body.
Since my initial weightloss, I have struggled with many things, mostly pain. I hold a lot of fluid, I have back and neck pain and my pannus is heavy and very uncomfortable these have been my real problems. One thing that has not been a problem is REAL TIREDNESS, the kind where you walk and you are out of breath....that feeling I had before weight loss surgery. For about a month now I have noticed it. I am exhausted walking to the car, anything that requires some effort.
Here is what I discovered. All this time, ( I have discussed this with professionals) the rapid weight loss my little fat body and mind were out of sink. My body showed me as obese but my mind reacted as if I was not. THerefore there was no cooperation. I could not lose a pound. Now I think I am on to something, my body and mind are back in sync. I am going to try again to see what results I can achieve.
So, I said good bye to my past 50 years looking on to my next 50. I will be healthy, that is my goal. The weight will come off without a revision. The surgeries will be done to improve my quality of life and I will reach ALL my other goals.
I solicit your prayers for better health, successful surgeries, and that I may prosper in ministry, marriage, maintaining!
I love you all.
It has been a running joke for years that I make long post, I do, so the joking is all in fun. Lately, I have had few words....so much going on in my life.
First let me thank all my peeps for loving on me for my birthday, i so felt the love and needed to feel it because the people in my life(visible) dont know how to love me and I except that. SO once again Thank you. You keep a girl moving on and moving forward.
Well Actually my birthday was not what I wanted, not what I envisioned but just the same it was a blessing. 1) I turned 50....that is awesome...GOD is GOOD to me. 2) I was tired and exhausted(we will talk about that) but I pressed my way. 3) for the first time in the history of my life. My little brother (rich) took me out to dinner and it was an enjoyable event. Now that was new, different and good.
None of my plans came together, but I found away to be grateful with what did come from it. I am living with my mother who turned 84 last monday and I have learned that I do not want to become my mother. She and I or a lot alike, she has been selfless all her life, she has given, given, given and now things should be coming back to her but her attitude stinks and sucks so bad that no one really wants to be around her. I do not want that for me. BTW she is a manipulator that does not help either and she made sure that she did not acknowledge my birthday....She did everything she could to get me to call her on it and I refused. So that was my challenge of the day. GOD was good to me and I refused to buy into her program she does enough everyday to bring a sistah down. what I am saying is I love her, will do anything for her but because i know she is still in her right mind I am letting her make her choices...It has been a strain but I am not crossing her will, so when she wants to be the martyr I let her play that role. So sad when you want to bless someone and they refuse the blessing because they want you to feel down with them.
Moving on..... I had an accident a couple of months back that pretty much knock me off my horse so to speak. Well the end results is I must have neck surgery if I want to keep using my legs and arms. That is the cold truth alot more with it but that is the gist of it. Pray for me while I try to get this set up.
I have delayed my Reconstructive surgery until I can get this taken care of.
Meanwhile here is some very interesting news. Everybody knows that when I started losing weight I lost a lot of weight in a very small window. 9 months to a year I managed to lose the weight. I managed to keep it off since and it will be soon five years. Meanwhile in the past few months, since I went through the foreclosure, the move and all the drama that has come after it I managed to gain some weight. about 20lbs.
I know I should be really upset and crazy....I am not....I learned something recently about my body.
Since my initial weightloss, I have struggled with many things, mostly pain. I hold a lot of fluid, I have back and neck pain and my pannus is heavy and very uncomfortable these have been my real problems. One thing that has not been a problem is REAL TIREDNESS, the kind where you walk and you are out of breath....that feeling I had before weight loss surgery. For about a month now I have noticed it. I am exhausted walking to the car, anything that requires some effort.
Here is what I discovered. All this time, ( I have discussed this with professionals) the rapid weight loss my little fat body and mind were out of sink. My body showed me as obese but my mind reacted as if I was not. THerefore there was no cooperation. I could not lose a pound. Now I think I am on to something, my body and mind are back in sync. I am going to try again to see what results I can achieve.
So, I said good bye to my past 50 years looking on to my next 50. I will be healthy, that is my goal. The weight will come off without a revision. The surgeries will be done to improve my quality of life and I will reach ALL my other goals.
I solicit your prayers for better health, successful surgeries, and that I may prosper in ministry, marriage, maintaining!
I love you all.
~Dedee 
Didn't I just warn y'all that those one liners was going to turn into something? Well here it is...LOL! ((((Di))))) I will pray that all that you wish for will be realized!
People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas. ~Author Unknown
~I Am Worthy~
on 8/31/09 1:47 am
on 8/31/09 1:47 am
Beautiful Di Diiiii ,Hi sweetheart!! My prayers and thoughts are with you girl. And a happy belated 50th birthday.
I'm soooo on and off this thing here... (you see me over on fb
)... easier to text and reply.. you know.. all that jazz... however, this is where my *home & heart* is. 
May your load be lightened sis and all things be done in His will. From my fingertips to His ears. Amen!~Wanette~
~I Am Worthy~
~N~U~R~2~ ("And You Are Too")
CLAIM IT PASTOR CLAIM IT!!!!!!!!
(You know the power in that)
It sounds like you are right on track for your next 50 years.
I so look forward to 50.
There is something magical to me about being about to say I AM 50 years old.
At 50 you can be in your RIGHT mind.
You know what you have done and what you need to do.
At 50 you know when to stop and listen and when to keep on moving.
At 50 you don't have to justify, signify or clarify to anyone - you don't have to.
Continued Blessing and Happiness is yours
(I Claimed that for you)
(You know the power in that)
It sounds like you are right on track for your next 50 years.
I so look forward to 50.
There is something magical to me about being about to say I AM 50 years old.
At 50 you can be in your RIGHT mind.
You know what you have done and what you need to do.
At 50 you know when to stop and listen and when to keep on moving.
At 50 you don't have to justify, signify or clarify to anyone - you don't have to.
Continued Blessing and Happiness is yours
(I Claimed that for you)
Peace & Blessings, Sharon
6 years and counting
6 years and counting
Di you know how I feel about you... However, I MUST speak straight from my hip on this one...
Your actually blessed to still have your mom around to see you celebrate "50" years of living. However, regardless of who the person is Rhonda is not living with anyone who is messing with my sanity. I will live in a motel before anyone make my life especially my home miserable. I will love you from a distant before I allow that to happen. I am not siding with your mother however it is her house and if you don't like the rules you can move on. I know easier said than done however YOU are responsible for taking care of you.
Sorry to sound so harsh but It is time to stop the pity party and DO YOU, and stop letting everyone have so much control of your lively hood. Love Di first and you will soon notice others will see that and start treating you like the woman you should be treated. Oddly, once you remove yourself from all this negative energy I BET physically you will start feeling better.
Your actually blessed to still have your mom around to see you celebrate "50" years of living. However, regardless of who the person is Rhonda is not living with anyone who is messing with my sanity. I will live in a motel before anyone make my life especially my home miserable. I will love you from a distant before I allow that to happen. I am not siding with your mother however it is her house and if you don't like the rules you can move on. I know easier said than done however YOU are responsible for taking care of you.
Sorry to sound so harsh but It is time to stop the pity party and DO YOU, and stop letting everyone have so much control of your lively hood. Love Di first and you will soon notice others will see that and start treating you like the woman you should be treated. Oddly, once you remove yourself from all this negative energy I BET physically you will start feeling better.
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