the slippery slope
Hi BAF,
I writing this as an accountability thing for myself mostly. This week at work has been really hard. I got the caretaking/ boundary issue thing going on and a lot of people pushed that button this week. I thought OPP (other people's problems) didn't really affect me - but after a week of dealing with or just listening to folks with very serious problems from cancer to impending homelessness and a bunch of stuff in between, [and no I don't work as a therapist] I found myself eating sloppy. What I ate wasn't all that bad - one of those pre-made cups of weigh****chers ice cream [no, I don't dump] (I thought if I bought 2 pre-made cups instead of a half-gallon I would do better) a 40 calorie fudge bar and some meat that had way too much fat left on it [now that made me a little sick] but how I ate it was reminicent of the bad old bingeing days... It took somebody else to point out the connection between this stressball week , my feeling of being overwhelmed and my food behaviors. I don't want to go back there and I don't choose to continue these behaviors. I want to commit to keeping a food diary for the next seven days and keep track of how I feel when I eat or just when I want to eat....It has been a hard week and I do deserve a treat - but it don't need to be W.W. ice cream. I think I can just afford to go get an eyebrow wax and a manicure tomorrow - that should be a small pick me up!
Thanks for listening...er reading!
Rhonda
I writing this as an accountability thing for myself mostly. This week at work has been really hard. I got the caretaking/ boundary issue thing going on and a lot of people pushed that button this week. I thought OPP (other people's problems) didn't really affect me - but after a week of dealing with or just listening to folks with very serious problems from cancer to impending homelessness and a bunch of stuff in between, [and no I don't work as a therapist] I found myself eating sloppy. What I ate wasn't all that bad - one of those pre-made cups of weigh****chers ice cream [no, I don't dump] (I thought if I bought 2 pre-made cups instead of a half-gallon I would do better) a 40 calorie fudge bar and some meat that had way too much fat left on it [now that made me a little sick] but how I ate it was reminicent of the bad old bingeing days... It took somebody else to point out the connection between this stressball week , my feeling of being overwhelmed and my food behaviors. I don't want to go back there and I don't choose to continue these behaviors. I want to commit to keeping a food diary for the next seven days and keep track of how I feel when I eat or just when I want to eat....It has been a hard week and I do deserve a treat - but it don't need to be W.W. ice cream. I think I can just afford to go get an eyebrow wax and a manicure tomorrow - that should be a small pick me up!
Thanks for listening...er reading!
Rhonda
(((((HUGS)))))
MSW Roux-En-Y Gastric Bypass: Eat sensibly & enjoy moderation
Links: Are you a compulsive eater? for help OA meets on-line Keep Coming Back, One Day At a Time Overeaters Anonymous
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V'N MY RNY. WORKING FOR ME BECAUSE I WORK FOR IT.
I've got to step it up on the journal this week also. Trying to motivate myself to get to the century mark. We've to stay focused.
With God all things are possible and we CAN do Hard things.
Have a great day,
God Bless,
Trying to figure out how to reverse this weight gain.
HW309/SW294/LW199/NEW CURRENT:230 NEW GOAL:195
Life is what you make it - So make it AMAZING!
CC
(((Rhonda))) The surgery doesn't change the bad habits we had that got us to be where we were thats the "work" people don't see when they say this is easy. The mental will be what mkes us successful or destroys us. Recognizing this is great and we now have to start recognizng it WHILE we're doing it and even better before so you can make the right decisios to get you through the "episode"
You've done good thus far keep it up!
You've done good thus far keep it up!
HW 299/PS 286/CT 155
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