Re: my o/t yesterday - I did it !!!
It wasnt the cowardly way out.....cause I was prepared to tell her how I felt had she answered the phone -but she didnt so I broke it down to her via Sprint.
I told her that I have ingested her schittt for 25 yrs almost like a human toilet bowl.....only for her to NEVER even try to feed my spirit with anything positive.
I told her I wish you well...but Im not carrying this type of " friendship " into my 40's cause I deserve better.
And you know what I feel soooooooo free right....I feel so empowered - WOW !!!!
Its funny cause as much as I talk I have always had a problem telling people how I feel when they hurt me. Im the type that will let that stuff fester up in me and pick at me....and the new Plum on this new day cant do that anymore. It just dosent work.
Thanks everyone for all your heartfelt support and encouragement. I really appreciate it.
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up. 
But friend is the operative word.
Dont feel obligated to call me cause of this Judy....just call me when you can.
I understand how life gets in the way !
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up.
I didn't comment on your post yesterday however, I did read it. Most of the people in my inner circle is only people I have known less than 10 years. I wasn't blessed as my mother to have ride to die as friends as she has had for 40+ years.
My patience don't allow me to deal with foolishness I will cut a joker off below the knee caps in a minute. I guarantee you that you will feel so much better that you have released that "unneeded" stress.
Its funny cause I always wanted lifelong friends...but most of my lifelong friends are just as off kilter as they want to be. Such a disappointment. I guess they are what I was soooo long ago.
And being in NY all their lives hasnt helped much. No disrespect to the natives....but sometimes you have to get away to grow. I know I did.
Many of my new friends are soooo much more my pace and more valuable to me on all accounts.
Out with the old and in with the new. As they say.
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up.
Good for you! I am glad you got it off your chest. I think that this was the most important thing...because I know...that by just dropping it...without saying nothing...she would have tried to make it your issue...and you would have still felt as if you let her off too easy. She needed to know how "you" felt all these years ...so that she can own her stuff. Sometimes people need a mirror so that they can see how they are behaving. Believe it or not some people are in denial about this sort of things. I just need to give you fair warning....more than likely she mull over it for a a week or two...you may not hear anything....then all of a sudden BAM! she might call....and offer all sorts of apologies. If in fact this happens, you should not feel obligated or even committed in any way to jump back in that situation. You need your space and your time to see if its even worth giving her another chance to try to be a real "unselfish" friend. As I said before, you just might not want the negativity in you life period....true friend or not. I am glad you feel better today!
She sure did need to know all these years but for some reason I couldnt bring myself to say it.
I started the conversation off by saying that we were gonna be 40 soon and I needed to get some things off my chest.
Im sure she got the point. I bet she knows now more than ever...that Ive grown. Its time for her to do the same......and sad to say I wont be around to see it happen. My ticket has expired.
Ive been a mirror for her for years...saying you are pretty, you are special, you are worthy of love. I shoulda been saying that stuff to my dayum self and never poured so much into her.
I feel fantastic pretty lady. Thanks for your help and understanding most of all.
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up.
