A dream deferred...

  As I read more about the story of Maria del Carmen Bousada (the elderly lady who died two years after having IVF twins) it struck me that she’d spent nearly all of her life putting her dream of being a mother on the back burner.  Then, after her own mother died, she woke up and realized she had not lived the life she wanted.  She sold her house to raise the money to go to the U.S. to have that surgery, but she only had two precious years to be with her babies. The last part of her life was spent suffering from cancer, so even that time was cut short.  She waited too late to live.  
I’m not waiting to live.    If you are, what are you waiting for?

A Dream Deferred

by Langston Hughes

 

What happens to a dream deferred?

 

Does it dry up

like a raisin in the sun?

Or fester like a sore--

And then run?

Does it stink like rotten meat?

Or crust and sugar over--

like a syrupy sweet?

 

Maybe it just sags

like a heavy load.

 

Or does it explode?

You know what - you are SO right and this is deep.  My mom is like her.  She spent her early adult years appeasing my grandmother's ideal and then got pregnant with me and lived according to her perceived ideal of what that should be too - a lot of missed opportunities to 'step out on a ledge'.

I refuse to do this.  I keep jumping the ledge, and by the grace of the Almighty, I keep landing on my feet.  That's why I have a goal of something each year to do that I haven't before - so that i always expand, not stay stagnant or contract. 

I had not set yearly goals consciously, but I've always been one who believes in moving forward.  I'm a fervent believer in the philosophy if we don't grow, we stagnate and die. 

I ain't going out like that. 

...this must be "wax philosophical" day...for us engineers...

Wow....that touched me.  That really struck a nerve.   I have put dreams on the back burner.  I have put the needs of others above my own needs.  I have put my life on hold to care for others and in many ways, that was necessary and I would do it again, but I know God doesn't put a dream in your heart that you can't achieve.  You may have forgotten about your dreams, but He hasn't.   We are not promised tomorrow.  Today is the day to live.   

 We sometimes do make sacrifices because we love someone, but don't forget about YOU!

Thanks...smooch back 'atcha!!

Im not either Sue, Ive always been about chasing my dreams and doing things daily to make them manifest.  We only have one life,  we gotta make it what we want or  die trying. 


Great post !

It's like that country song that says "Live like you were dying"