I am headed down the wrong road tonight I feel it.

I had a drink or two this weekend and it just does not feel right because I actually like the tipsy feeling.  Pray for me because I do not need a transfer addiction at all yet I am having a drink right now.  I got to be honest with some body especially myself.

I've been making some of the same bad decisions lately. In fact, I poured a drink down the sink earlier today after having one sip. It seems that with success comes greater temptations.

I realized that I was setting my self up for failure by not having the food I need around me. Not that I have junk foods. However, other than my protein drinks, I only have frozen meats that I"ve not bothered to cook.

I  decided to get back on track and I'm not waiting until tomorrow to begin. I went to the store and bought ingredients to make food choices that are right for me in this wls journey.

I've invested a lot in this. I will no longer engage in self sabotaging actions that brought me to the point of needing the surgery in the first place. I deserve better. YOU deserve better.  

ETA: Don't beat yourself up. We fall down, but we get up. You have achieved so much and I know you have the strenght  to continue to do so.

You are right today will be the last time I engage in any adult beverages.  I know better so I got to do better I going to take my tipsy butt to bed and tomorrow start fresh doing what is right.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO,  not the daily devotional lady too....Lord, what is this world coming to.

Ok, let me stop playing.  Just put the drink down and say no.

ETA: Plus drinking makes you gain weight.

I know right I have went years with out a drink what is really going on.  I am not trying to gain a oz so my drinking days are over after tonight .  Drinking is not for me I have absolutely no reason to indulge but I did it anyway because it was brought to my house alcohol is no longer welcome in my home.

I WISH I had never started drinking again......Kim warned me! A hard head makes a soft behind!

I only had three drinks over a five day period but I am so done with it.  I so do not need the calories or the feeling. 

That feeling is a trip isn't it?  You feel happy as all get out for a second or two and then you take a leak and feel all somber and stuff.  Next thing you know you're up on a table doing the stanky leg to no music whatsoever.


Yeah that feeling is a trip...

I can relate to that, over the fourth of july I had 3 drinks and got good and tipsy and couldn't finish them.  My cousin ended up drinking them for me, the bad thing is as quick as you get tipsy you get sober. So I kept getting tipsy over and over again.

And THAT is the trap.  You're not really sober.  You just THINK you are because you don't feel the same high, but the alcohol is still in your system.  Your brain is lying to you!  You keep drinking more to keep boosting the buzz back up and the next thing you know, it's tomorrow.  Don't ask me how I know...

I've accepted the fact that I will never be able to drink alcohol like a normal person again since having this surgery.  It's not weakness of will.  My body is different.  I am better off not drinking at all.