Does anyone watch 'Ruby'?

Everyone that I know who used the prepackaged meal plans gained their weight back too.  People really need to learn how to buy groceries and cook or learn how to eat out properly. 

Yep I watched the marathon when I was over my Mother's recovering from my plastics.

One funny thing happened though, I asked my mother 'did I look that big?' even though I was 400 not 6 it still kind of reminded me of my former size, and she paused and thought about it for SO LONG before NOT really answering that I was like 'dang!  I musta looked bigger than I thought!'

I still have issues with that too.  Someone recently showed me a picture they took of me with a group and I couldnt really recognize myself ...  

I saw a picture from a year ago, and I was embarrassed, but then I thought about it and realized that I still think like a "fat" girl. How do you get passed all of those horrible memories? I have lost 120 pounds in the past 6 months and I am smaller than I have been in the last 20 years. I have a fear of sabotaging myself because overweight is all I know. When I get on the scales and they don't move for a few days I freak out. I know I am not supposed to weigh daily but I can't help myself. Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated.