Old pics !!!
Im home today and found myself looking at old pics of myself before surgery and getting all teary eyed. Im usually emotional at this time of the month.....( cycle coming ) so it was easy to pull from my well of tears...but the pics alone was enough to move me to cry a river.
Im just saying.......how did I ever let myself get so outta control. ??? Im actually embarrased that I went on vacation as big as I was ??? Furthermore, how did somebody still love me when I didnt love myself ??? No wonder it was hard for me to walk a block without my back hurting ?? Or for me to get all winded and out of breath just for doing something as simple as tying my own sneak ??
I just dont ever want to get that way again and my heart goes out to people who havent taken the means to get their weight under control. Nobody deserves to live life imprisoned by their own body.
What does seeing old pics of yourself do to you ??? I actually thought for a minute, that Im never eating again.....but then I came to my senses
Shame on me, for not doing something sooner but Im glad those days are in my past....I only have a wonderful quality filled life to look forward to. I know Im gonna always battle with my weight, but I dont have to lose at this thing....I can beat it daily....meal by meal and choice by choice.
We -the whole BAF - need to continually pray for strength, courage and wisdom when it comes to being proactive in regards to our health and well being.
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up. 
Seeing old pictures of myself give me a constant reminder that I don't ever want to go back there ever again. I have asked myself repeatedly "how did I let myself get to that point." I am so grateful to have had this surgery. I am in agreement with you when we you say we need to continually pray for each other.
People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas. ~Author Unknown
Girl Im trying to understand what happened ??? I know life dealt me some low blows in love but why I did I have to finish what it started....Shaking my head.....it was like I didnt want to live anymore. I didnt have a reason and food became my everything. But the devil is a liar.
I matter now, I care about me now and I cant ever go back to NOT caring about me again.
Im grateful for my surgery as well...big hugs to you sis.
We will continue to overcome !
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up.
I will be the first to tell you that "I am in love with food and I have similar characteristics of a drug addict or an alcoholic...meaning food is addictive for me." I refuse to allow it to overshadow who I am and for who I am to become, Amen! THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!!!
People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas. ~Author Unknown
Kimmmmm 
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Thats a good idea.....I need to get the one of me looking like a big black whale on the beach and put that mug shot right on my fridge. the freezer, the microwave, the oven and every one of the cabinets
Girl I tell you we are in the fight of our lives....and it only begins with the surgery. 
Never give up pretty lady......you are worth it.
And all of our BAF family are deserving of the testimony 
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up.
Late night, afternoon or morning treat that is.....ice cream has no respect for time.
Best wishes on your journey.......
remember to take advantage of all that is bestowed upon you.
In life, and especially on this journey there are sure to be days when you falter and give in.......just remember to never give up.
