What can I say

Should be on the rant and rave butttt......
Our father have been ill since the end of Jan.  Well, with that being saided he's been in and out of rehab, wound care center, back to hospital for stents(SP?) or stints.

Well today when he went in for them to place another stent in his leg.  They was having problem, so I ask if we needed to leave (HB & I).  Was told no in a few minutes in a panicking voice she asked us to leave yes I knew something was going wrong.  Sister had left the room to get meds and walk while we sat with daddy.
Well when she return they was running a round panicking at least 4 of the nurses.  He only had one nurse he was bleeding out. That I could tell when she was trying to put pressure and could not handle it.
My sister saided something to night that I'm still upset about.
I really wonder if she realize what she saided. She will tomorrow she told her daughter that I was up there reading the bible and she was upset because she was trying to see what the nurse was during.  I was trying to keep  her mind off of what was going on by asking her some questions in my 90days of reading the bible.  SHE Acted  LIKE I COULD CARE THE LESS ABOUT WHAT WAS GOING ON.  I was trying to keep our mind in the right place so if things would really go bad we could handle the out come.  I've been there as much as she have and wonder why she think I could care the less. We're having a longggg talk tomorrow.
I'm so upset this time of the morning. Not to say we have been up at 5am in the mornng yesterday and didn't leave the surgey room until 5pm. and this is not the only day this has happen.

Oh Kathleen,
I don't quite understand what all is going on but I pray that it all works out in your (and your Dad's)  favor. Keep the FAITH baby, ......... HE will see you through.

Thanks to you'll I took you'll word and thought about it before I saided any thing.  I didn't have to say anything she came and saided that she was more upset then she thought she was. So thinking and not saying did pay off.  God bless you all our dad is doing a whole lot better today talking, smile and takking about the day he'll be going home. They even sat him up in a chair today haven't been in a chair for 6 weeks. THANK YOU'LL AGAIN FOR ALL THE PRAYERS.

Kathleen,  Babygurl you are really going through right now and I know how hard it is. Your sister and YOU both are havin a monster of a time going thru. I'm so glad that dad is better.  You and dad are still in my prayers cause we know that at some point some day what is the inevitable. You are doing right to strengthen yourself in the WORD!! and Remember YOU are still in my prayers. God Bless you babygurl!!!

Thanks I know even with the fear I not there 2 thing that we know do have birth and death.  And if I don't have a grip I think
I'll would be skipping a beat. Made it through a child death because I have another one that depended on me. But this is hard so I have to find away to deal with it. Thanks for keeping me in your prayers. BAF have made me know that this place can be a helping and healing place in all kind of ways.

I'm sorry you are going through all this.  Sounds like everybody is stressed and worried right now - you might want to lift it up in prayer and hold off on that talk a few days - from what you are writing doesn't sound like anything good will come out of it except hard feelings on all sides...of course you know the situation and your family and if you have to speak your peace - so be it.  God be with you and yours.

Rhonda

Thanks FOR ALL THE PRAYERS everything worked out without having to say a word thought so long and hard and she knew she was wrong.

Kathleen sometimes we loose sight of what keeps us going and obviously that was her moment. Im sure when you talk to her about it, she didnt mean it the way it came off.

But I am sorry to hear about your Dad but I pray he is doing better now.

Thank you. Things have gone great didn't have to have that talk she realized what she had saided and knew she was wrong. Dad is doing better they even seat him in a chair today. Thanks for the Prayers.

Oh, Kathleen.  I'm so sorry this happened.  When people are stressed and afraid they deal with it in different ways.  Your sister wanted to be in the middle of things and you were trying to spare her and prepare her for the worst.  She just didn't understand.  I know you're very hurt right now, but please try to forgive her for misinterpreting your actions.  You should by all means talk to her and let her know how you feel but choose your words carefully.  Also, since you heard this second hand, consider that it could have been said in a different way from how you received it.

It is so hard to deal with when someone you love is suffering.  People sometimes say or do things they didn't really mean because they feel helpless.  

Sending lots of (((((HUGS)))))