Did the decision to have WLS calm your soul?

You know, when you have a burden and it seems there's no way to get rid of it.  You've prayed HARD and OFTEN for willpower, strength, etc to get this weight off. You've tried the stop prayingm leave it to God approach.  Or even the God helps those who help themselves approach - aka DIETS!  Nothing worked.

You may have been miserable and cried to God - how can You want me to be miserable?  Why? Why can't I be happy/thin/average sized?  Why can't I find the willpower to see this through?  Or any number of questions.

So, then the decision is made to have WLS - you haven't seen doctor the 1st, but you went to Dr. Jesus and said, "Look, Lord.  I know you're a healer. I also know that if I take one step, you'll take two.  But Lord, I can't continue to abuse the body that you've given me.  I've not been a good steward and I'm suffering from all these afflications and prayed for a healing.  And you've said be patient, my child.  And I got impatient and lost faith because I saw no way out.". And Dr. Jesus said My child, since you took that one step, I will heal you of your afflictions."

So, you've had the consult with Dr. Jesus.  but not the surgeon.  Asked him to lead you to a competent and compassionate surgeon... And now, before even speaking to that man or woman... you feel...

PEACE.   Your soul has quieted, you see hope. You may sitll have doubts - it's human nature.  But overall, you feel a calm like you've either never felt or haven't felt in a LONG time.

Am I the only one??? What was your experience?  Speak on it, please - not just read!!!  And yes, it has calmed me - such that co-workers even say I'm quieter and smiling more.

I just I'm trying for us to encourage all.

I started dieting at the age of 9.  I've probably tried and them and and then back in 2001 my friend asked me to go to wls support group with her.  I went to supportive to her but never thought that was an option for me.  They kept trying to give me information and I was like what, "what ya'll talking about.  I'm not that big...am I." 

Finally the delusional thinking started to go away and I saw that I needed help.  I kept trying to get the surgery but my insurance always had an wls exemption.  I was pissed and hurt.  I didn't have anyone in my family's support.  I asked God, why can't I be normal like other people...why do I have to be the fat one. 

I did some soul searching and last year I finally stopped carrying the load and put everything in God's hands.  He opened the doors financially even though insurance still said no.  It took less than a month for me to get the loan I needed and find my wonderful surgeon.  When I got my surgery date, I too gained that peace.  The day of surgery I didn't have family by my side.  I paid a girl to drop me off at the hospital one hour away from New Orleans in Slidell.  I waited patiently with all my stuff.  Some may say, you went alone but I say no because I know that God was with me and he carried me through my surgery in January without any problems and continues to be my comforter.

Thanks for sharing!!!


BTW, I know where Slidell is personally - I'm from New Orleans (East).

I know I'm late...I'm staying out in River Ridge by Metairie and working in New Orleans.  Are you planning on returning to New Orleans?

To visit?  Sure.  To live? HELL NO!!! It's too dang crazy out there.  I left in 2001.

What calmed me was the night before surgery.  I stayed awake all night in prayer and made peace with my decision.  I prayed for strength and courage to actually go through with it and I prayed for my surgeon.  When 4am rolled through, God had spoke to me and said it was my time to take back my life.  That's when I had peace.  I knew I was gonna wake up and my life would be changed, better or worse, a change was gonna come.