Real Talk You Can't Compare

((((((((((((((((((Lee)))))))))))))))))))) girl I can't believe you are still doing that to yourself....I swear the mental thang is NOOOOOOOOOO joke!

I don't think i'll ever stop comparing and wanting to be thinner or in my case more fit.

I tell you if I could beat the mental issues I would be fine cause I got everything else down pretty good.

so babe I have to ask...What is the point to where you want to get to be satisfied and not compare?

I think mine is a more of I don't know where I fit it.  I try to figure out am I that size,  am I bigger than her or smaller than her.  I don't know where I fit in the scheme of sizes.    As far as comparison wanting to be like others I don't do that really cause I think i'm hotter than most.  LOL.     I just need to get where I want to be, and that is getting this weight that I gained 2 years ago off of my ass.   

I was so happy with the way I looked 2 years ago and ever since I gained weight I can't stand it.  I am about a pant size away from being where I was and where I was happiest, that is my goal to get there again,  i'm to close to being fat right now for safety sake.

you're like the old lexus slogan: the relentless pursuit of perfection.

but perfection is funny. its kinda like tomorrow....people always talk about it but it never comes.

True mofo dat Sam!

that had to be the realest thang I read on BAF yet!!

Sam the day I stop trying is the day I will start putting weight back on,  Been there and trying to correct it now. 

I think people get up and workout in an effort to be the best they can, and to make good use of their tool,  that is what I do every single day I make the effort to workout.   

I am by no means seeking perfection because i'm pretty perfect as is, (yep I said it)  I just need to keep my stuff tight and the only way to do that is to make sure I take care of my body by working my tool.

Lee thank you so much for your honesty!  I feel that I am not alone right now... I too think I am so much fatter than everyone else because  I "should" have lost a 100 pounds by now, etc.  my friends and family look at me like I am crazy because I say,  I want to lose 30 more pounds, etc.  Sometimes, I do feel like giving up, BUT THAT IS NOT an option...  Thanks again, BAF and thanks again Ro for this post...

Ro Ro, thanks for this post!  Girl I am so guilty of this.  I AM my worst cridict, but I so appreciate what you and the others have had to say....  To this day, I still say the same thing to myself and I KNOW it is NOT healthy.  Trust me, even being 3 years post-op, I am really kicking my own behind because I STILL measure WLS success by the numbers on the scale.  It is awful and I still ask the same question, why why why?  Why couldn't I lose more, etc. etc. etc.  Trust, this journey has not been easy, but I will keep pressing on...

Thanks again for this post...

Have a blessed day...

Kim

((((((((((((((((Kim)))))))))))))))))) a whole lot of us are right there with you girl...I to am a slave to the scale