7 WEEKS LEFT OF THE 20 WEEK BIG TRIP PROGRAM

Morning Yall

I am really worried that I won't be able to make my goal and it is driving me crazy.  My body seems to be stuck right now in some kind of a rut and doesn't want to move anymore.   I hate it so much when you work your ass off and get no results.  

I wish I knew some magic way to make my body lose 30 pounds overnight.  Oh to be a witch with powers to make my ass shrink.

My running is going well, my left knee is still a bit messed up from the last sprang but I'm still haning in there with it.  I don't want to fail at this and I feel like I have already given up and Becca says she can tell the I am starting to give up because I feel like I can't make it.   That makes me sad cause when my mind goes i'm pretty gone.   So I will spend the day trying to get my mind right.

I have 7 weeks so instead of thinking it's only a little time I am going to think of it as a month and 3 weeks. 

Ok,  Yall I don't want to be a bummer so I'm going to end this and get to writing my lecture. 

Yall have a great day.

Well I only lost 3 pounds for the month of April so that sucks. I see right now these last 30 lbs is gonna fight me to get up outta here! But it's cool lol my 12s are fittin good so all is well with the world. I'm still running so that's good. I'm actually gonna see jorjandu next weekend for a 5 mile run in Philly. She'll run and me and another DSer will run/really really fast power walk LOL

Only losing 3 pounds I thought would bum me out but for real, I feel better than I have in a long time. That's really what matters

Lee don't give up.  You have come such a long way.  You set a goal and surpassed that.  So what if it takes you longer than 7 weeks to lose 30 lbs.  The point is that you WILL lose those 30 lbs.  You are going to go on vacation and have a good time.  Dont be worried about the body you want work with what you have.  Don't let your thoughts of defeat take away from what you have accomplished so far but most importantly don't let it take you back from you just left.  Today I ran. I ran for 30 minutes.  My body hurt but I REFUSE to go back to where I was 5 years ago.  I will never be THAT woman again.  I have faith that I will make it to my goal and I know you will too.  So PLEASE DONT GIVE UP.  You encourage me to keep going every day and there are those you encourage to do something each and every day.  

Actually my goal to lose 30 pounds ended when I started when I almost lost my mind on that dam scal,  it's a clothing goal now to get into a size 10 jeans again. 

I won't give up I don't even know how to give up but I just feel so sick and tired of working so hard and not getting where I want to be NOW, NOW, NOW.     I sound like the old Lee,  huh  LOL.    Your right though April,  and Becca said the same thing,  if your not a size 10 when we leave who cares, you sure in hell won't be a size 18 which is where I started.   So I am happy about that I just get discouraged sometimes. 

I am such a mental case, you have no idea.   I am very OCD and when I get in that mode I have to have to get whatever i'm doing done or I freak.  LOL.

I really have been thinking a lot today about how far I have come and dam I did good in these past 2 months.   I looked up all my hotels and the cruise ship that we will be staying at and they all have gyms so I plan to continue to run while i'm on vacation.   I sure in heck am not going to lose time and effrort by now working out for the summer.