How did you deal with your Walk Of Shame?

But it was the nudge I needed.  The whole thing boils down to a lack of confidence.  How da hell do you lack confidence to save your life???

Hold your head up, baby.  Things do get better.   



July 14, 2005

A while back I was working on a committee that had to do an inspection of some surgical equipment.  Everyone else in the group started dressing up in one of those sterile "bunny suits" but to my utter horror and humiliation, I discovered that I was too fat to put it on.  One of the techs offered to take me to where I could find some scrubs that might fit me, but I came up with some lame excuse and went back to my office and cried.  I will never forget that day.

A few days ago I went on a worksite visit with my CEO and I wore one of those suits.  It was baggy and I had to roll up the sleeves.  I smiled my own little secret smile and went about my work, but inside I was singing.  I will never forget that day either.

Same thing happened to me.  We have this amusement park for kids only and my ass got stuck in the rollercoaster.  I was so embarassed. 
The second one was at Knott's Berry farm in Nov right before my surgery.  Kiddie lnd of course.  My son refuses to ride roller coasters without me.  We didn't fit and he was so mad.  I was so embarassed too. 
I'm going to Magic Mountain in 2 weeks.  Last time I went, I couldn't even walk around the park.  I ended up in kiddie land with my son, sitting on a bench, huffin and puffin and too tired to participate. I thank god for WLS.

Oooooo... I miss Magic Mountain, Knott's, the Queen Mary...

Even what I saw happen @ MM as a 5 year old didn't deter me from loving amusement parks.  Long story short, there was a wooden coaster called the Collasus (sp).  it jumped the track on a curve and peeps died.  I saw it - was too small to ride.  My cousins would have been on there, but for they let some people skip ahead of them!!!

Have a ride for me, Nikkemo!!!

Awwww Ma sorry the weekend was a little disappointing

OK I  posted this two years ago  but I could not find the  original posting , I was at 6 flags and I tried to get on The "EL TORRO" roller coaster, as we were waiting in line a guy handing me and my friends a paper that warned us of the weight restrictions but I figured I had rode that ride  the previous summer  and had no problems  so as I got to the front and sat down I tried to pull back the restraint  and its suppose to go back to all the way  till  you see the green indicator I figured I was good to go  but just when they were giving the all clear sign  I a buzzer went off and  the operator said " check 5" I was thinking in my mind  'damn who is 5" all of a sudden two of the workers came up to me  and  they tried to push my restraint  down one was pushing with his hand and the other wad trying to use his foot , needless to say  after a few seconds ( which felt like minutes) they said  " sorry big guy its not gonna work, so  I pulled my hat down  and walked out of there with a bad limp because I would rather people think  that  they were not going to let an injured person on the ride as opposed to a fat person. .....fast forward to last summer I was able to get on all rides with no problems at all  so there was light at the end of the tunnel.

To be perefectly honest, i've always avoided situations and issues like that. I don't get embarassed to easy. My WOW moments always came when it was a personal mile stone for me. One of my favorite WOW moments are being able to fit in a regular bathroom stall. That for me was exciting!!!!! 

Honestly thought I'd have fit, Baker man. I knew there was a slight chance... honestly, had I not regained some weight, it could've been done.  It just didn't latch..  And, having rode rides at an even heavier weight, size, I thought I was set, but that was 2001.. but a dude did tell me that one of the coasters I tried was snug.

So now when I tell people I'm fat, maybe they'll believe me.  I walk in seminars and people look @ me like whatcha doing here.  

But never did a sista think she wouldn't fit on a ride.  I'm pizzed. I'm ready to get my innards cut NOW!  (wait, let me get that last porthouse from Lonehorn 1st!!)

"... . I'm ready to get my innards cut NOW!  (wait, let me get that last porthouse from Lonehorn 1st!!)..."


Uh, Brandy?  You are NUTZ...certifiable..but ur alright. lol. 

Gotta carry my crazy papers with me every day... LOL.