I Need Your Help

Here's my story and I'll try to keep it short. 4/2/07 I had rny. I lost 90 lbs in 6 months and then just stopped losing no matter what I tried or did. After about 3 months of nothing I started getting discouraged and not working out as much and eating things I knew I shouldn't. Needless to say I started gaining weight. I put back on about 30 lbs before I was approved for revision surgery. I had my revision 1/13/09 and lost 22 pounds in the first few weeks. That was because I was so sick and in so much pain that all I could do was drink water. Then when I started eating the weight loss stopped. I didn't lose for about a month. I started going to the gym at first just doing water aerobics and I'd lose like maybe a pound a week. Then I started walking on the treadmill first for 30 mins making sure I'm doing half of it on a incline of 2-6 and then doing the hour water aerobics and I push myself hard on each one. I'm at the gym Mon - Thurs and then Saturday religiously. I've only lost 11 more lbs since the 22 lbs in the beginning. For the past couple of weeks I've been gaining and losing the same 2 pounds. I'm so afraid I'm going to stop losing again that I don't know what to do.

A sample of my meals would be:

Protein shake when I first wake up 110 cal 25 gr protein 0-1 carbs
B - 1 scrambled egg w/ salsa and cheese
L - Usually the same thing because I'll order two eggs at breakfast and just split it in half
s - protein shake before hitting the gym
D - Chicken tacos without the shell (chicken, cheese, lettuce, tomato, onions, sour cream and parmasean cheese.
Sometimes I have a few peanuts at night if I'm wanted something.

What am I doing wrong? Sometimes I'll have two boiled egg yolks (I hate the white) and maybe a slice and a half of bacon for breakfast or lunch. I know it is a lot of fat, but my body isn't supposed to absorb that much fat because of the amount of intestine that the doctor bypassed in the revision. I just don't know what to do. I'm trying to up my water to more than 64 ozs. What else can I do. Any advice will be greatly appreciated. 


ETA: I feel the same discouragement coming on that I had before. I even gave in and ate a cookie last night and the guilt was horrible.

I just got off the treadmill 20 minutes ago and at an alternating pace of 3.5-4 on a 5 incline for 30 minutes I only burned 210 calories.  That was my warm up.

That said, at first glace, seems to me you're taking in more calories than you're  burning.  Weather you absorb all the fat or not, you should probably leave fatty foods alone. 

Where are you finding a 110 cal shake though?

The shake is Isopure powder. A full serving is 220 cal and 50 - 55 gr of protein I split it in half. The bacon eggs and cheese all have fat. I'm cutting out the bacon, but if I can't eat eggs and cheese for breakfast what should I eat. I don't want to eat things with carbs unless it is veggies.

Is the powder 220 cal alone?  I ask because if you're mixing it with milk, then you're missing counting those calories right there.  Granted skim milk is only like 80 cals, but still.  I will tell you this, once I stopped obsessing about protein I  did better.  Everything you put in your mouth does not have to be protein, I personally am off the shakes right now cause they're too high cal for me.  There is nothing wrong with a pack of oatmeal for breakfast. (for example)  Pick your protein up with a lean meat at lunch and dinner.  Snack on Tuna, cheese cubes, greek yogurt etc. 

And even though I struggle with it some days you GOTTA get your water in.

I do mix my protein with water, but I kid you not just this morning I was thinking about not doing them anymore because I felt it was just adding more calories that I needed to try to burn off.

I am only 4 months post op.  But it appears to me that the choices in food are very unhealthy for your situation.  Not to say I make the best choices all the time, but one thing I do is follow the food plan outlined by my NUT.  I'm not sure if your NUT gave you an outline that consists of foods for every stage of the process out to 18 months out. 
Also discouragement and mental anquish is a part of change.  We have to remember that we have made a life altering change and commitment.  It only fails when I fail to stay committed.  No matter what the scale says I know I am healthier and happier.  And when the scale doesn;t move that means I have to intensify and change my workout routines, water intake, protein intake calorie intake or any other factor that is a part of this process. 
Joining BAF has made me aware of the challenges I will and have faced.  The one thing I have learned from BAF is I don't have to give up and I don't have to feel like a failure.  So I say get up dust off , grab some tissue for the tears and jump back on the wagon and do it again until it works. 
This is hard it is not the easy way out. Remember this is a life changing experience from the way I eat to the way I look.  Damn I should have tried weigh****chers one more time
You will be okay stay blessed and prayed up

Everything that I've listed in the book of okay things that I was given except for the bacon. they recommended turkey bacon. Can you give me some ideas of what your Nut would approve of or of what you do?

hit me on the bl with your eamil and I will scan the sheet for 3 & 4 months for you

Email me your email address and I can send you the list from my nut....I'm on this stage 3 for a month.  

Fortunately, even after being 4 years out, and hating exercise, I can knock off a few pounds quite easily simply by adjusting WHEN I eat.

I agree...remove the fat. Err' body has a different body. Yours just may not take to it well. I know you also said if you dont eat bacon and eggs for breakfast what will youe eat...well what do you want? Who said you must eat breakfast food in the morning? All you must do is eat healthy. I prefer to get up and eat a chicken breast mid-morning...around 11 am...after having had a yogurt for an early breakfast, or a cup of tea/coffee.

What my body does not like is late night eating. What time are you eating the chicken taco you listed. And that cheese and sour cream at night would it on my behind and wake up with me. But this is my body.

Get some exercise in as much as possible. Try eating your protein rich goodies earlier in the day. There are no foods that have a breakfast-only label on them. It may work for you to eat backwards...if you know what I mean. Definitely watch what time you eat in the day.

Wish you well. Keep me posted.