I'm Scared.....

 Hey BAF, 

As I sit here in tears (crying like a little baby) actually after watching the Oprah show. I feel like a big ball of emotions. I just had my consult with my surgeon yesterday and everything is a go. I am just waiting on an official date but, when Star talked about not having to be the life of the party or having to be "extra" she really hit home with me. For years I have been just that girl. The one everyone like to hang with and call on to bring life to the party. And like her I  have no clue what or who I will be once I'm on the losing bench and what its like to wear clothing that starts in the teens.  I'm also scared of the surgery its self I've never  had a major surgery and though I have  faith in God I'm still  scared. I really need words of encouragement from people who have walked this path.  

On a softer note Star looked so fabulous today. She has always been a person I looked up to but today she I saw her in a brighter light. 

Have a great night! Thanks for letting me vent.

Hey you. 

Let me start by say by saying "hi" to you. 

That you are afraid is only natural.  Why?  Because you, like so many of us, are venturing into the unknown.  I, for example, had no idea what my life would be like once I started losing weight, for I'd always been "the plumb baby", "the fat boy", "the chubby teenager" and finally the "obese man". 

You will be okay.  You'll see.  Smile and just take everything into stride.  :) 

Hi there,
I think we all experienced fear. I was not sure of going through with the surgery right up to the time they wheeled my daughter into surgery. We did this together. I am so glad now that I did it. The day before surgery I took 80 units of Lantus at night, a sliding scale of novalog in the day an oral meds twice a day. Also took three different blood pressure meds. Today I take a blood pressure med and my thyroid med. I started at 280lbs and size 24 tight fitting.  Now i am 170 and size 11 pants fall off of me. I ain't been skinny since I was a kid. I did this to improve my health. I think my daughter did it cause she still trying to get a man. LOL

Fear OMG please you ain't heard of fear until I tell you my story husband was pissed saying I need to up my life insurance cause I was doing him and my daughter wrong having the surgery I freaked out the day of saying if I just would stop eating them I wouldn't be so fat and wanting the surgery OMG emotions were a wreck my husband thought I was crazy cutting on myself like that and if I just excercised all would be ok everytime I talkied about surgery he didn't want to talk about it saying only white people do things like this so I stopped talking about it cause everytime I did he didn't want to talk about then the day of surgery OMG I could be explain all night LOL it was bad but now when we look back on old pictures wow what a difference good luck best wishes pray on it and put it in the LORDS hands and to this day that is why I told NOONE my familywouldhave freaked out they are major ole skool

I don't know if I was just to stupid or tried of being big as I was for so many years that I was afraid.  I went in with a pray of my heart and a song on my
mind. That God was with me all the way down the hall and in the surgery room.. I also was taking insulin 3x aday and 2 different pills a day.  Before I was released out of the hospital I haven't taken a shot since.  My worry is not getting to goal as need both parents are now ill and with 3 girls I haven't been able to find my ME TIME.30-35lbs.
Learning to live life again I'm enjoying the weight lost went from 24-22
to a side 10 slim in women jeans and large-medium in tops.70 something lbs.  Baby enjoy the ride you will enjoy it and be a better person in the end you my love yourself NOW. But just wait for all the number's to start dropping down and you KNOW you will love you so YOU  ALL THE WOW'S ARE COMING YOUR WAY.

Hey dollbaby... Everyone has already giving you great advice... but let me tell you this sis... after WLS... I'M STILL THE LIFE OF THE PARTY!!! ... WHEN I WALK IN A ROOM... I HEAR ONE THING IN MY HEAD... "THEY CAN TELL BY THE WAY I WALK, I AIN'T FROM AROUND HERE" LOL... What may be for someone elses case... may not be yours... MY MAIN RULE after WLS... ALWAYS BE YOU!!!  Hell folks are going to say you change... You let them know that you have... FROM ONE SIZE to ANOTHER and keep it moving...

I'm having surgery Monday, girl last night I thought I was dying...  BIND UP the DEVIL and he will FLEE...  Fear NOT my CHILD...  For I am with you ALWAYS... ***That's GOD TALKING***

Be blessed and enjoy your life NOW and AFTER your surgery...

Much love to you,

NAS-JACK HEY VONDA

HEY BUDDY!!!

Everyone thanks so much for the wonderful worlds. I really appreciate them.  

You will be just fine.I watched Star Jones also and I think that she spoke for a lot of plus size people.The best part about it is that she did something about it.Good luck to you and getting a date and in your journey...