To Good To Be True

As I mentioned many times I have been content with myself as a big girl for the most part except right prior to surgery being so close to 300 (294)...That was it for me...I always day dreamed about being smaller, being able to shop with my friends, and the day when I can argue with someone and they can never say you "FAT B****"...I lost weight before down to 208 and I am 26 lbs away from that but in my head I had feelings that things will stop at 208 and I will never be in the ones or out of the plus size section...I would love to be smaller and am almost positive it will happen (after seeing everyone on OH)...I just do not see it happening to me...I feel like it is to good to be true...I am doing all of the things to make it happen...I am not just sitting back, I am working my tool...I am so anxious because I want to prove myself wrong but I just do not think this is possible...Please shed some light... I am usually a strong person but this weight loss stuff is just to much for me because I never imagined that I would actually be small one day...

Disclaimer..lol: I am not complaining about weight loss (I lost 60 lbs ina little over 3 months) but it is the mental part of not being prepared to see myself as slim like I am kind of scared of it.

Dammnit girl - you are still a BABE in the game!!!  Calm the hell down!  Your body will do what it do WHEN it gets good and damn ready!!!!!

LOL!!! - go to my page and look at my weight chart - the loss takes TIME - you got PLENTY left.  Focus on staying on track - not how much you are losing!  The stalls will come, and go - if you keep up YOUR end of the bargain - everything will be cool - you will end up as small as you work to make yourself.  What does that mean?  If you don't exercise and eat crap - you sho WON'T get under 208 - but - if you follow what you are supposed to - and keep it up - your total honeymoon period (of almost 2 years) will see you through to your goal.  

Wooooosssaaaaaa Isa - woooooMOFOINssaaaaaaaa....... LMAOOOOOO

MM...It is not about the weight loss...I loveeeee my progress thus far...I lost 60 lbs which is great...My concern is that mentally I just do not see myself being small...It is just weird to know that it is actually going to happen...I know it will and I am not concerned with how long it will take but the fact that one day I will probably be considered "slim" when all of my life I was a big girl is just kind of out of mind...You feel me...No concerns with stalls, weight, or anything...It is the mental part of actually being small that I am thinking about. You missed the point of my whole post, but I still love you. ;-)

Feeling small?  Hmmm - ok - I can see that.  It does take time to adjust - but you have no reference point to work ffrom right now.  When you start to have moments when you are forced to see yourself that way - like the first time you walk into Lane Bryant and they try to beat you down..... you will start to shift your perspective. 

No magic bullet or solution here for that - you WILL get there - but that take more time than losing.  Just like you didn't see yourself as big as you really were - you will do the same on the other side.  And just like you came to the realization that got you to have WLS - you will open up to the small thing too.  

Hell - I STILL have to think twice when waitresses ask me Table or Booth?  It's not automatic that I FIT!!!  LOL

There we go...Thanks so much...And you hit the bulls eye...When you are a "big girl" you get accustomed to certain ways of thinking...Like when "Watch out for the big girls" song comes on...I am used to everyone looking at me and expecting for me to start dancing...Chosing which chair to sit in at a bar b que...etc etc etc...You know what I am just excited...I am so emotional and I feel like shedding a tear or two...Yes I am a punk...I am just excited but I will be patient and embrace the changes...It was just that a co-worker in my division who I work close with was like Isa you look so slim today, really you do she said and that kind of gave me a relaity check that I am on my way...Thanks again sweety.

From My BFF- Who never had serious weight issues:

Funny, Isa it’s gonna Happen.  I can definitely relate to what you are saying because I might not have been 294 but after chris I did balloon up to 166 and I never thought I would be able to be in my teens when I was going through my weight loss process.  It was just something that I thought was impossible.  Back then I would have killed to be 132 now I’m fighting to lose 17lbs.  I just kept telling myself it’s possible and comparing my selves to celeberties that did it before and people that I knew personally like star Jones, My cousin flo, Anna Nicole ….etc.  My point in telling you this is it will definitely happen for you.  I already see it, down 60lbs in 3mnths.  The last time you did that it took you like 7mnths.  Just embrace it and keep doing what you are doing b/c you will look down and the scale will say 199 and you’ll scream and tears will come down your eyes.  Then you’ll be telling this same story when you are 145lbs.After all this talk you have motivated me to start going back to the gym!!!

Isa I feel the same way u do sometimes, september of this yr will make 2 years for me.  i never envisioned myself going into lane bryant and them saying um WE DONT HAVE THAT SIZE!!! but it did happen..now I can say if I go into abercrombie they will say UM WE DONT CARRY THAT SIZE...lol lol U will get there ISA and you will be tearin up the town!!!

I am 4 years out...I still do not see myself as slim. Sometimes, I look at clothing and think, "That is not mine is it?"  I cant believe it can fit me.

I continue to look in mirrors and do double takes. I have a chin line. Not a double chin. But my chin has refinement to it. People see me and ask me,"How much more weight you gonna lose?" Nothing new with that....but it has been 4 years later. I aint lost no new weight. I have maintained the same range. Praise God. But they see something I do not see.

I recall when I went to my old faithful...Lane Bryant. The clerk told me they did not have anything to fit me...cause I was too small. To me, she was crazy cause I was still sportin' some of my Lane Bryant clothes!!! But she was right.

Still, I hear and see all of what you are saying. It gets better. You gon' make yo'self dizzy fo it is all ovah!

Wish ya well.

Nia

I think we all had that feeling and I can't believe I have lost 80 pounds since my WLS 4 months ago but it happened and now I know that it will happen.  It kinda scares me though cause I am getting so much more attention.  I was so used to being invisible. 

Same here! I think we all feel some what like this one time or another. But you have to remember it is all in the head! Your mind is playing tricks on you! You are fabulous!

I went to The Avenue today to buy a pair of slacks I was in a size 26/28 so I tried a size 22/24 too big. Tried to 18 yawl I nearly lost my mind in the changing room! I was shouting like I was in church up in that piece!

Someday I will go H&M and buy me one of those skinny chick outfits my girlfriends wear and wont look back. And Sista you will get there too and wont look back!

Don't get discourage!!