It's not that I don't believe in God...

"I walked on my faith that day when I walked off that job."

Hi Sue,
back in 1996 I did the EXACT same thing back when I worked in the "corrupt" plant. I couldn't take it one more day and simply walked off the job. Two days later I had a new job paying right to the penny what it took 6 yrs to accumulate in the plant. I was also given immediate benefits.

Hi,
as a child I was raised COGIC (church of God in Christ). We went through so many of what I now call rituals that I still do not understand to this day. We were basically bullied and scared into doing right by being told all of the "horrible" things that the loving God that was preached about would do to us if we didn't live right. They had many rules of their own that could NOT be found in the Bible. Many things taught were based on 1 or 2 scriptures from the Bible. I could go on and on....

As a result of all of that, I struggled for quite a few years. I guess that I was agonistic. I was totally confused but later began to attend Bible classes and got more of an understanding.

Later (and not in cogic) I recieved the baptism of the Holy Spirit. Once that happens....you KNOW that you know that you know that you know that he exists and loves you. Once that is established then there is a relationship that God is a huge participant in. Things WILL happen that will let you know by no doubt that it is he right in the midst even after and when I have fallen short.

Hope this helps, this is the only way that I can explain it.

Que

I guess I'll put a lot of my business in the street. First of all as others have said, it is all about your faith. If you don't have the faith to truly believe I don't know how you can build that relationship with Him.

Just a couple examples of what faith has done for me. I was 17 and had bought my first car. I was being hard headed and wouldn't keep my butt at home and kept going back and forth to sacramento which was about an hour and a half away. One night on three occasions I was warned by three people to stay home and quit running back and forth. That I needed to take care of my baby that was now 2 months old. I didn't listen. That same night something woke my mother up and told her to get up and pray. Well she thought to herself that she doesn't have to be up to pray for another hour. Again something said to get up and pray or she'll be sorry. So she thought she was going to miss out on a blessing that God had for her so she got up. A little while later she got a call from the hospital telling her that I had been in an accident. She asked them if she should come now or could she finish praying first. They told her that I was going in to surgery and that praying would be in order. Well fast forward over 20 surgeries later and surgeons coming in to tell you that they had given up on you and that it must have been God that brought you through, I can't help but believe. I wasn't supposed to be able to walk for 5 years, through the help of God I was walking in one.

I was also going through a separation with my husband, he came back and I was so happy. Then out of the blue he left again. At this point I was hurting so bad because I hadn't done anything and was trying my best to make it work. Anyway through all the tears and just plain boo hooing I thought to myself I need to go to the church and have someone pray for me. When I got there for some reason church had been cancelled. I just sat in my car crying and rocking back and forth when I finally screamed out God help me. At that very instant I felt someone wrap their arms around me and hold me until I calmed down and this peace came over me like no other. I know that was God because there was no one in the car but me.

One last thing. All of that didn't stop me from turning and walking away from Him. I got off in to drugs really bad. Methamphetamines was my drug of choice and I had a serious gambling problem when using them. Things for me got really bad. I tried many times stopping on my own, but always went back to them. It wasn't until I gave my life to God that I was able to turn and walk away from them without as much as a glance back. I'm now have a good job working for the State, and am in the process of having a home built for me and I'm doing it on my own. I always thought that I needed to wait for a husband, but God is blessing me to do so many things.

Girl just have faith and tell God to prove Himself to you and I know he will.

I appreciate your courage in making this post.

I will share some seriously deep things from my life with you - and yes, this is a RARE moment for me.

Do I believe in God?  YES.  Do I believe in the DEVIL?  YES.  Because - I feel both have made themselves known to me. I'll explain.

When I was a teenager - I was in my atheist stage and decided to 'talk' to the devil - yes - I am a moron.  Anyway - I boldly asked that if he is out there and real - make himself known to me.  Couple of mintues later as I am walking home, I see a very dark figure in the doorway to my home - no lie and no, I wasn't drunk, high or anything else.  I looked away and back - it was gone.  That second was all I needed.  I ain't ask homie no more questions after that either!  LOL

Then - in my twenties - I was living the 'good' life - comfortable, listless, no ambition - but not very caring either.  I used people to my advantage and didn't take the time to help anyone.  I remember boldy saying in the mirror one day "God - I don't know WHY you created ugly people - cause I am TOO beautiful - how do they live?"

Weeks later - I developed Bell's Palsy and the right side of my face was totally paralyzed - I almost lost my right eye.  I had to relearn how to speak, drink from a straw - and to this day, I cannot whistle due to permanent damage.  Vanity is a sin - and HE will let you know when HE is displeased.  How could I see this as God?  When I developed it - I went to the ER and found out I was pregnant with my daughter - who has been the gem that has changed my life.  I am the person I am today because of her.  

So - THAT'S why *I* believe.  Nothing wrong with you, hon.  When HE sees he needs to - he will come to you.  Nothing happens that HE doesn't already know - your life is planned and moved in the blink of his eye, you rest in the palm of HIS hand and you are the apple of his eye!!!!!

Be blessed lady!!!!

WOW!

yea, I know - too deep, right?

LOL!!!

I believe in the Creator because I choose to. My faith is a deliberate choice for me. I could choose not to do so. I choose to do so because of the great comfort I obtain from it. I choose to do so for the rewards the Creator (God) has promised to the faithful in this life, and the next. 

I love Him because of the things He does for me. I love Him for the mercy He bestows upon mankind and all of His creation. I know I can never love Him enough and this is not what He requires of me. He expects so little and He does so much more for me. My relationship with Him is one of the most pleasurable, but most imbalanced ones in my life. He gives. I give back through worship, praise and by supporting His creation, especially others. He gives more.

I follow what I believe to believe submission to His way of life because of the clarity it gives in a world of chaos. It gives me a source of guidance, or a tool, if you will to feel a bit securer in such an unsafe world. And truth be known, I am not one to be left to my own devices. He knows so much better than I. The steps and choices of those who have come before me, with the same beliefs, appear to have attained the same resemblance of spirituality and serenity I strive for. Gives me more reason to go for it!

Do I doubt? I do ask myself, "What if I am wrong...? What if (others) are wrong?"  I decide that is not for me to decide. It is my decision to choose a path of peace for this life and the hereafter. And I believe that in all sound judgement, I will have made a better, a safer, a more loving and God-filled contribution to God's people, His creation, and His plan by having done so.

So, I continue.
We, and I speak first to my own soul, so often follow others when it comes to money, buying a house, WLS tips, parenting, and where to buy make up. Some of these are very superficial things. Some of these have life long and life altering results.
For this reason, I seek to listen to the wisdom of God and other like-minded spiritual people to have good life long...and hereafter...results.
God willing.

May God give you the courage, peace and desire to heed His call. God chooses whom He will. I pray you will hear the spirit of God within in that is closer than your jugular vein and run to it. Ameen.

god is good....all the time.

but on a side note, sometimes i don't believe alotta the people who say they workin for him.

So back to my question, why do you believe in God,
Because i'm still here..

Why do you love Him?
Because he first loved me..

why do you follow him?
it's all i know how to do..

Why don't I?
Only you can answer that...