MY MIND IS TRIPPIN!!

What you are feeling is normal. At time of surgery I only had 104lbs to lose.  It was the best decision I have made for my health. 

hey girl,
i wont give u all the pray and relax stuff...thats been said, plus u seem ok with the decision..just wondering what ur outcome will be.

as far as being obsessed with size/weight, etc...a lot of that (IMO-not so humble LOL) has to do with dissatisfaction with SELF. Its all about being happy with YOU! 10 more lbs may make ur clothes fit different or being a diff size may be a way to shop @ a new store...but in the end, its only NUMBERS. that scale or tag in ur pants isnt going to change self esteem issues (and some ppl lie about it like we are all blind LOL) or make ur life better if you havent worked on ur innards. focus on being ok with YOU, whether its feeling sexy, improving ur education, or whatever else is ur driving force(s). thats where its at.

Sunsheyen  i kind of thought the exact same thing (that it all has to do with SELF)! Thank You!

Wow girl!  I could have written that exact post myself. I'm so glad you decided to share your feelings because I have the exact same things going through my head.  I have been feeling so weird lately wondering if I'm making a mistake and if I should accept myself the way I am.  My husband is so worried that my butt is not gonna be all big and juicy like he likes it. 

I have been in a tug-of-war with myself thinking ok, if I get too skinny I can just gain some of it back but what if I can't stop gaining and gain it ALL back.

I've been kinda mourning the fact that I'll never be able to enjoy food like I used to and I've been contemplating if I wanna be miserable from this point forward. 

I've been thinking...I don't wanna be too skinny and look like a crack head. LOL  I haven't told anybody except my husband and my son so I know that's the first thing my family will think when they see me.

I'm already dark and so I don't wanna get darker and start looking old.  Don't get me wrong though, I have no problem with my dark skin as it is.  I think I'm cute. LOL

With all of these things going through my mind I've received a great deal of encouragement just reading this board and I've decided that I will continue on this journey and do the best I can. 

If you need someone to talk to please don't hesitate to contact me because we can make it through this together!!!

LaTanya i will be in touch with you, and you stay in touch with me you're right we can go through this together! this board is so GREAT! you start your new life before me....thats great!  CONGRATULATIONS!

YEA YO HUSBAND GON BE MADDDD.

LMAO!   He will get over it!! 

LOL.......middle man you stupid!!