Self Denial is a Mutha

I absolutely did.  I as you was squeezing into the wearing 26/28 and just thought "Thats because of how this is made", not wanting to get out of 22/24's.  Honey, I can have you rolling if I tell you the story of me in my swimsuits on my honeymoon and being mad because all the pictures made me look fat.  I too am still big at 224 but I have less confidence than I had at 320 and 305 (day of surgery).  I am at work now and kind of busy, but when I get home I will repost to this response because I have more to say.

You've done a wonderful job and I can't wait to see your repost later on especially about the less confidence.  I pray I gain confidence but I know I have to kinda find out what my new role is.  It may sound sad but I've always been the crazy fat girl who always made you laugh and wasn't afraid to say what was on her mind...well I was like that until I started getting too big and then I was a lil to shame to say much.  I'm not waiting to lose all my weight to start working on my self esteem...I started that process awhile back and I'm feeling better than ever no matter what the scale says.

I was always well aware of my size and I thought I was cute, but when my health started deteriorating and I couldn't keep up with my daughter I knew it was time to do something. 

Girl, I started at 376....I think I got down to about 300 before I even noticed a difference.

Hershey, I wouldn't have ever known that you started at 376.  I used to love being around kids but it got to the point where I couldn't keep up when playing with my lil cousins and kids have a tendency to say what's on their minds.  I decided to get myself together now so when I do have kids I would be able to keep up with them and not be the mom always on the couch eating and sending the kids to go out and play by themselves.  I'm proud of you and I'm sure your daughter is loving you being healthier.

Yeap, I was in denial.  I was buying 30/32 but I always had to hold pull the shirts to keep from showing my bra.  And now my kids tease me all the time about how big I was.  They pull out old pictures, if they can find them, and say things like look you can't even see the chair you was sitting on! 

Lia D

Ok Lia, now they wrong for that chair comment ...lol.  But I guess it's good to look at where you came from to make sure you don't go there again.

Girl - I was so far up denial - I was displacing WATER out that river!!!!  LMAOOOO

I kept telling myself that I wasn't THAT big - that the booth really COULD fit me - that it's OK to hold your pants up and they cover the door frame from one side to the OTHER.........

I now fight with myself over thinking that the size 10 pants I wear do NOT mean I am still a fat cow - that I do fit into seats with no problem and I am NOT taking up more space than I should..... it's OK that my stomach is totally flat.... MOST folks aren't!!!! 

I struggle with acceptance EVERYDAY - hell - looking at my stomach sitting in front of me RIGHT now as I type this..... thinking it's the hugest thing in the world - but I am sitting with my laptop actually in my LAP..... so it's really no big deal! 

Girl - I was so far up denial - I was displacing WATER out that river!!!!  LMAOOOO

Girl you a fool for that but I definitely hear ya on that.  Makes me think about Chris Rock's take on fat girls..."yeah I'm big but I got some good p***y under this gut."...lol

Seriously, I guess there will always be a mental game to it all even when you lose the weight.  By the way, have a safe business trip and I'll be sure to get my water in.

I wasn't in denial about being fat but I was in denial about how large I was I'm only realizing now 4 years later after looking back at pictures that where taken in 2002 that I was big as a house, and there are still times where I feel like I need to lose 5-10 pounds but it's all in my head because at my height 5' 8 I'm right where I should be BMI & weight.

I was in denial for years.  I thought is was OK for me to be big because I was big all my life.  Then I started thinking about all my relatives after they hit thirty took a turn for the worse from being over weight.  I knew I had to do something and being on a diet every other month was not helping.  I was squeezing in to 26/28 at 378lbs because I refuse to buy a bigger size.  Now I am still wearing  them even know they are huge on me because I refuse to buy anymore big clothes.  I do own a few smaller size items that I alternate with the bigger items.