Taking personal responsbility thx Neena

OK, I just blogged about my eating and I have to go back to basics and take responbility for this journey. This is the hard part maintenance we all know that losing the weight isn't difficult is maintaining it that's the bytch So, I'm making a public declaration of war on  this "inner fat girl" that up until recently was walking behind me lurking in the corner of defeat now has gotten the message that somehow I've invited to SHARE this damn walk with me like we partners and the heifah is right beside me and sometime have the audacity to ask me to carry her big ass!  I know I can not be successful thinking I can compromise with this woman she got 100 lbs on my skinny ass

  I haven't gained a damn thing and I don't think it should take me seeing it on the scale to know there is a problem that's what got me to 299 in the first place denial and my great communication skills telling myself that  it's not that big of a deal. Well it is a big deal and I'm taking this journey back right now TODAY!

Beginning today I will go back to planning my meals a week in advance so I'm not caught off guard and making poor choices on chips and dip with a sandwich as oppose to fruit or veggies.  I will no longer not have anything for lunch so that I must "make up" lunch with vending machine items, stuff in our work fridge, and my desk drawer or just not eat and snack all day until dinner time I gorge on the wrong foods.  I will have some calcium, some fruit, and some veggies EVERY day. I will also walk for at least 2 miles every day at minimum. The hair is going back natural not wanting to sweet the press is no longer an excuse.

This journey is definitely 90% mental and I did so well the first 8 months but as the restrictions came off I enjoyed it but I don't like where the path is going. This is a daily journey that never ends unless you give up or die and I refuse to do either.

It's also good to see posts like this!!!   You have already done such a good job.  You can and will continue...

Great post!  I have that same inner fat, lazy bytch!  In fact, she's already caused me to put 12 lbs. back on, and I'm having a hell of a time getting it back off.  My clothes are getting tight and I'm a little more sluggish and tired.

Yes, this weight business truly is a journey that takes many twists, bumps, turns, setbacks and comebacks.  It's time to get back on track before these 12 lbs. become 50 lbs.!

Keep us posted on your progress!

Great post Queen. We're human and we are going to make mistakes but it's good to know that we can start over. You have some great tips in this post. Thanks for sharing and declaring them.

I so admire your determination, this is exactly why I joined this site to be inspired by people like you. Once I have my WLS it will be this OH fam to keep me going I know it. Thanks for sharing your DECLARATION....keep pushing that Bytch away and one day she will disappear forever.

BEE