12 days late but still, it is what it is......long post!
Every year for the most part I come to BAF to reflect on the year and look at the past, plan for the present and think about the future.
Last year tops it for me. I think for the past 13 years are so I have to say, every year gets harder and harder. So as I have stating so many times before....Last year was the hardest year I have ever seem in my life.....
Funny...it is like it is generally about finances....Money Money Money... the bible states that Money answereth all things. I realized that every situation that I faced, if I had had more money I could have done better. Seriously, money directly or indirectly effected any and every situation that I had.
....We money does not buy everything.... it may not but dang it, it trues seems to effect everything in my life......
We in spite of finances being the way they are I toiled and tilled through 2008 and a lot of wonderful things happened.... I continually remind myself of God's goodness despite the hardships, the trials and tribulations.....
So as the year ended...I made up mind to finish strong. I was not going to finish the year defeated....
I looked at all the stuff that happened..
My business was screwed up.
I did not lose a pound.
My church situation was jacked up.
My house went into foreclosure (still there)
I lost my vehicle.
A week later my daughter's car (in my name) was totalled
I decided to divorce a man I have never live with.
I started trying to date (smh)
I met some one I was delighted to know.
He died on me without fulfilling our plans.
I started a new job that I hate that pays me the same wages I made in 1987.
I started school to obtain a new degree. (doing well too)
I started trying to fight the age thing. (almost 50)
I ventured out of my comfort zone in many areas.
I met some really wonderful people all over the US.
I met some real freaks too.
I am able to call many more people friends.
I have run into and met people that maybe able to help me get some things off the ground.
I have been inspired in many areas.
My son moved home and knocked the wind out of my sail.
....These are just some of the few things that happened this year...there are so many more... and even me who generally has no shame dare not bring up.
...But here is the important part. In all of this ...with all that is happen...I still found myself saying, "Lord Have Mercy On Me" What is the next step? What do I do now? Will I ever find real love? Am I fooling myself?
One morning as a matter of fact it was shortly after Christmas , which by the way was sad and a joke.... Give you an idea...you know I love to cook...I did not cook...could not afford it. That goes to show you my mind and situation...... But even with all that I was thankful, prayerful and meditative because I knew and know that God is still in the blessing business and I needed to find my niche and work it right.
I knew that I needed to redirect my focus.....I have been scattered and looney in this madness called the life of Pastor di.
well while hurriedly running to the car one morning, just stepping off the porch.. The Lord arrested me. I hear these words.....NO more business as usual....it must be business unusual....If you want the unusual blessings you have to do the unusual things....if you want the usual blessings keep doing the usual things... THIS BLEW MY MIND.
I knew right then and there this was going to be an awesome year. I knew right then and there it would not be an overnight change but there would be change and it would come. I knew that is would be out of the norm and it would be unusual.
I am looking for the unusual....I am doing the unusual. I am challenging my faith to reach for the unusual. I dont want business as usual....I need something wonderfully new and exciting to happen in my life. I need to get to goal and business as usual has not worked. I cannot stay focused or on track. Always distracted...always defeated...But this time...I am taking on the unusual...no more business as usual.. No more ministry as usual.... no more believing in the usual.
I HAVE DECIDED TO INVEST MY TIME TALENT ENERGY IN THE UNUSUAL....
I will no longer just accept things as they are.... I want to see , feel, experience the unusual....
I could go on with this because each day I have learned a bit more.
I want to encourage all of you to go pass the normal don't miss your blessing because it is not package in the usual package. Don't not look into a bag because it is balled up crinkled, greasy and looks like trash. Your blessing may be in that bag. Don't discard someone because they don't measure up.... You may be entertaining angels.... Pay attention to the things you never look at and see what it really going on ....
you never know....you never know....It just may be that unusual thing or blessing you have been looking for all a long.
I pray that each and every one has a prosperous, productive, year in every aspect of your life.
I love you with the love only God gives ....
di
Proverb 16:9
May not be where I want to be but I glad to be where I'm at.
Working at getting the rest of the way.
12/10/2012 I'll be having LBL, BL/BA, thigh & arm lift, eyelid
Body by Dr. Sauceda booked to 12/9--12/22
Now see Diane ... I have went Michael Jackson (changed colors because of all the years it took to read this) on you and aged and I am out of breath after reading ALL of that.
People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas. ~Author Unknown
Wishing you a prosperous 2009 and you already have the attitude for it! Miss seeing you around here
~Shani~
I've been pudgy, chubby, thick, and now fat........Imma give thin a go round!!!
SW-262, size 18W, 5'6"
CW-168 1/15/2010
GW-162
94 Lbs down...6 more to go...changed goal to see Onderland for a hot second!
I really and truly pray that God blesses you with your hearts desire. He really has a work for you and if nothing, it's to provide ministry to some of us/all of us on BAF.
I thank God for your existance.
You are an angel and great is your reward in Heaven...
Kim
Holding your hand and embracing you, because I feel your burdens and count your blessings miles, miles away ~smooches~
I focus not on my disabilty; my focus is on my ABILITIES.
(Dedee, 2009)
My hearing impairment ENABLES me, not disables me.
(Dedee, 2008)
~Dedee