Surgery Postponed.... Why am I so afraid now?!?!?

Hello everyone,

I am fairly new to the boards - at least posting that is. At any rate, I previously had a surgery date of January 2, 2009 for the rny. Due to the fact that I could not get clearance from my pulmonologist in time, the date had to be pushed back to January 30th. Before today, I was as calm as can be - even excited about the surgery. When I woke up this morning, I had this unrelenting fear about it all. Now I am questioning my decision and wondering if I am making the biggest mistake of my life. In other words, I feel like I am back where I was when I started this process several months ago. Anyone else have this experience? I feel like calling the entire thing off and trying to do a conventional diet, yet again.

Thanks for listening...

Alaycia

First of all hello neighbor!!! secondly don't worry about it I felt the same way! My surgery was originally scheduled for 3/31 however I got a fever and due to a possible infection the doctor rescheduled for 2 weeks!!! I thought at first is this a sign that I wasn't suppose to have it as others said? Then I realized that it was a test to see if a setback would  turn me on my heels away from this blessing that was going to save and enhance my life. pray about it if you are a prayer and ask God for peace and get ready 1/30 will be here before you know it!

Hi, and congrats on making the decision to do something life changing for your health. 

I know all too well how you feel.  My date was change about three times and each time I felt less and less optimistic about the whole thing, I questioned wether or not I should go through with it. 
I then began to think of all those times I had juggled my weight in the past either with exercise or diet pills or unhealthy things like just being so sick so long that I couldn't eat.  I just want you to remember that all things happen for a reason.  If your pulmonologist wouldn't clear you, then you should thank God cause that means they care about you making it thru alive.  I had to see a pulmonoligist also and found that I had sarcoidosis.  It had to be treated and  I had to be off the treatment itself for weeks proior to surgery before my surgeon would even consider WLS and I am glad that they made sure my lungs were haelthy enough for it.

I may not have got up from off the surgery table if they weren't concerned about my best interests or I may have just had a hard time all together.  I had a successful surgery and everything went great from the time I walked in the door till the time I was discharged and I thank God. I have had no problems at all ever since surgery and I haven't had anymore symptoms of sarcoidosis. HALLELUJAH!

KEEP UR HEAD UP AND TRUST IN HIM.

Thanks to all *****plied.  You really gave me a different way of thinking about things, and you are right - all things happen for a reason.  It is definitely better to go into the surgery knowing that everything is fine than to fear that something might go wrong because it wasn't caught before hand.  I feel much better today and an looking forward to my new date.  Thanks again!