New Years: Closing Doors (kinda long)

I agree. Life is too short.  I'm just such a control freak that I sometimes want to hold on, "just in case". I mentioned my cousin who passed this year in response to Inspire's post. She was young (40) and passed away unexpectedly this year.  The thing is she and I had had countless conversations about the men in our lives, how we wanted thngs to be different, our attempts to break up... yada yada. She was in a relationship for years with someone who would give her anything except the one thing she really wanted-- marriage. She died still involved with him, but never having gotten that one thing.
I mourned at the funeral not only because she was gone, but for the thing she never got. Nowadays I wonder if she regretted this one aspect of her life and sometimes I fear that I could end up the same way.