When did it hit you...

that you were really having surgery??

Today I was at what I thought was my last nutrition followup (gained 5 pounds damn turkey day) and everything was going well until I realized that this whole process which started in May is now one step closer to being my reality. 

I was so taken back with my weight gain that my nutritionist added another much needed follow-up appt. to my program. She wants me to lose the 5 lbs but more importantly  I need to really get  myself in gear.  I've read books, talked to friends who have gone through this process, purchased all the needed post-op things and lastly I've lurked on here for months learning and absorbing helpful info.

So when did it hit you that you were really having wls? I thought I was ready but fear and reality are starting to sink in and make me fearful of the possibilities of weight loss surgery. 

Any advise would be greatly appreciated.

I didn't have my realization until I was being prepped to go into surgery. 

I had changed my mind two times previous...So I was ready when I finally decided.
It sounds like you've done your homework. You will be fine. It's normal to feel how you are feeling.

Changed my mind several times...extended the date about a year and a half after getting original approval and now wish I had done it years earlier.  You are fine...well you will be

When I received my approval letter in the mail -- I just shut down and quit eating.  I lost about 9 or 10 pounds before I even had any of my appointments.  It hit me hard "OMG!!!!I'm really going to do this!  I was so scared -- I think everybody goes through that. 

I was sitting in the waiting room before I had my surgery and I wanted to back out.  My surgery was scheduled for around noon, but there were a couple of cancellations (due to pts. having high blood pressure).  I only had time to sign and think about it for about 15 or 20 minutes and I was moved up on the surgery schedule.  After I got the drugs -- I was ok

The fear is natural and you are going to be fine

Karen

I can't say it ever 'hit' me.  I planned and prepped so hard - I knew it HAD to happen.  I had to fight my damn insurance co for over 8 mos to get approved, so when I went in  for surgery it wasn't like a blessing - I felt them mofos OWED me!  LOL

Good luck to you - and your NUT is smart - you do need to get your 'head' in the game - cause once you're cut - it's NO JOKE!!!! 

i finally completed all the test and exams i needed to do for my surgery ( with the exception of one that will be next week) and then i realize i have two weeks til surgery and then i started to get nervous and realized it was here

One day I was driving home from work...  maybe a week or two before my surgery...  and I just broke down and cried.  I NEVER CRY.  Well, movies and stuff but not everyday stuff.  Anyway, I literally had to pull over and I let it all out.  It was like an excited cry but at the same time I was a little scared.  That was my moment when I realized that I was gonna do this and it would change me forever (good or bad).  After my lil breakdown, I knew I was ready.

It hit me when I actually had a surgery date in April 2007.  I kept putting it off and extending the date.  Finally decided I wasn't ready Financially.  Now a year and a half later I have another appontment tomorrow with my surgeon.  I am going to do it this time.   So yes, what you are feeling is very normal.  It is a scary thing.  Especially for someone like me who never had any type of surgery.

When they where shaking me telling me to wake up the surgery was over, everything went so fast 2months (submitting paperwork, approval, actual surgery) never really had time to think about it. 

Wow!!! Thanks so much for all the information and encouragement.
I'm not alone.

I had a very long talk with my boyfriend and family advising them that I really needed to quit the bs and get my head into this new life I want. And they advised that they would support and encourage me.

Thanks again for the wonderful words.