GAINED WEIGHT, EMBARRASSED TO SEE FRIENDS

Girl I know what your talking about.   Becca size ******g four ass makes me look huge and people are always like your so tiny and then they look at me like oh you put some weight on have a ******g brownie.  

Becca and I use to speak at the meetings all the time but now they don't ask me anymore. LOL  **** um anyway but it hurts my feelings now and so Becca said until I feel comfortable again we will not go to meeting cause she is not going to have me going somewhere that makes me feel bad.     I am not jealous of her persay but I wish I could have to will power to do it and to continue to do it.   She will not exercise at all and she feels like she wishes she could workout like me but **** if I could do nothing and stay that thin I would be happier than ever.

Yeah I am up 10-15 lbs since last Christmas, and I am headed to the D.C. area for vacation during Christmas.  And yeah, I know that I will be so focused on this and wondering how much they all notice.  I almost cancelled a meet with friends on Tuesday but I went, and enjoyed it.  Gotta get back on track!

It sucks doesn't it.    I need to go home and spend some time with my dying brother and I keep thinking dam they are gonna see how fat I am.    I feel so guilty for even thinking like that cause I don't even know how much time my brother has.  You Know. 

(((((((((lee))))))))))) you're being waaaay too hard on yourself! You're beautiful, you're healthy, and a work in progress just as we all are!  Don't worry about what others think or say if they are your friend, it shouldn't matter what size you are physically but what the size of your heart is! I wish you continued success! God Bless you!

Thanks Poz2Bthin

I don't think it is them as much as it is myself.   

girl strut yo stuff and HOLD yo head up!!!! hell you might not be what you want to be but thank god you are not what you use to be!!!!!

Yeah i'm not 275 anymore but i'm not 145 either.   I am working on it and that is what I'm trying to remember.

Embrassment can be a good tool. It will keep you from hiding your head in the sand and pretending that the weight gain is not happening, but remember you are working out to lose them, so dont be too hard on yourself.

Yeah I guess embarrassment could be used to spur me on but instead I ate M&M's.   But I won't give up because I can't, giving up means getting fat again.

Hi Lee,

I know how you feel.  Everyone tell me how nice i look, but at the same time i feel they are waiting for me to gain the weight back.  If i am near food I want to eat all the time..It's like i am addicted to food.  I threw away a lot of food just to keep from eating it.