GAINED WEIGHT, EMBARRASSED TO SEE FRIENDS

GorgeousIsa
on 12/11/08 12:28 am - Philly-delphia, PA
I understand your struggles...I lost 70 lbs in 06 and felt wonderful and now I am about 80 lbs heavier than when I lost weight...I am going to try to be regular with it..Neutral..I would eat this and that because I thought I knew that I would get back on track..and before you know it I was fat again...I wish you the best and hope that it comes together for you..It is hard and I understand.
HIGH-294CURRENT-151 GOAL-150LBS GONE-143LBS 2 GO-1 (Last weigh in 7/14)   Platics Done: Breast Reduction (5/14) Extended Tummy Tuck w/ Anchor & Brachioplasty (5/29)
SistahGirl
on 12/11/08 4:37 am - Pueblo, CO
On December 11, 2008 at 8:24 AM Pacific Time, LEE wrote:
Everything you have mentioned I have done at one time or the other.  I really have to get my head right.   I know my issues are in my freaking greedy mind.    It scares me that my head is going to make my body fat again, but that is where i'm heading FAST !


I try to work on my thinking all the time.  I keep journals, I make video blogs, I eat well, I eat bad, but in the end the corrupt mind wins. 

I really am starting to think I need to go to a nutrionist even though I think they are full of ****  But something has to work.  I spin my wheels and all i'm making is smoke, i'm not moving at all.
Ok,  Stop "confessing" that you are greedy!!  Tell yourself you know how to eat, and you won't eat too much!   I have to tell myself that all the time, and I'm only 2 months out.  Remember - "out of the heart, the mouth speaks".   AAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNDDDDDDDDDD, stop being so hard on yourself, sweetie.  You look great!



A woman's heart must be so hidden in GOD that a man must first seek GOD in order to find her"    

Trish

LEE
on 12/11/08 4:57 am
I am so not hard on myself i'm just realistic and I know i'm fat.   Once you hit your goal it is so dam hard to stay there.   I just hope I can get there again and this time I swear I won't let this happen again.
Salty Pickle a.k.a.  Lee
Ms. Praise
on 12/11/08 12:06 am - MD
Hey Lee...OMG I must agree...people are sitting back waiting to see if WLS folks gain any or all their weight back.  I had someone mention the same thing to me "my friend had the surgery and gained all their weight back".  Okay...my thoughts was...what the **** does that have to do with me...and big or small I'm still BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

Girl you've done a remarkable job and just continue loving you and don't worry about what others say...because I'm one that often say...those who feel the need to notice everything about another person need to take a long look in their own mirror...because there's obviously something going on with them personally.

Keep doing you and don't worry about the rest!

Luv ya...Cassie
LEE
on 12/11/08 12:14 am
I hear what your saying Ms. Praise but it's hard being a big girl again. 

I just wish there was a way for me to get out of my head.   I have to go and have dinner with a friend tonight that I haven't seen since I was 30 pounds lighter.   I feel like i have to explain why I am fatter,  I know in reality I don't but I feel like I need to come up with a way to explain the gain. 

Salty Pickle a.k.a.  Lee
caramel_2
on 12/11/08 12:33 am - New Haven, CT
Lee you look so great I wish I looked like you uv've gor muscules for days if anything I am hating on you!!!with that being said I am still in the "wow" you look great moment it's only been 1year and 4 months for me!!!!

Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely who others think you are!


 

LEE
on 12/11/08 12:38 am
Thanks Caramel

I don't feel like I look great, yeah I do have muscles but I also have a uphill battle against me.   To battle aginst me is a hard fight, cause I have a hard ass head and once I believe something,  I am committed, just like when I committed to something I don't quit no matter what.  

But with all that strengh and determination,  I still can't get my eating under control. 
Salty Pickle a.k.a.  Lee
PrettyPlum
on 12/11/08 12:41 am
Lee, a real friend should understand your struggles. 

But I know there are some folks out there who act like friends but really arent cause of their own mess..

Regardless,  go to the meeting and hold your head up HIGH.

Like you said you could have easily gained it all back. 

But you didnt........your working on getting the 30 lbs off......thats what matters most. 

I would stop in for a quick " hello " and then courteously exuse yourself if things get uncomfy.  

You are not alone in this battle Lee.  We all can relate. 

LEE
on 12/11/08 1:20 am
To be honest they are true friends,  I only have one of those.  But none the less it still is embarrassing. 

I am going to still go out tonight and I am sure I will have a good time but I know I will want to arrive first and leave last so I don't have to stand up.    This is just crazy.  

Funny thing is all the people I am speaking of are really fat and all have tried to have the surgery themselves.
Salty Pickle a.k.a.  Lee
margokae
on 12/11/08 1:41 am - oklahoma city, OK
Lee, I can TOTALLY relate to how you feel..............................This is what happened to me:::  In my workplace it was no secret about my surgery...........my supervisor at the time was extremely heavy (300+) and everyone talked about her behind her back, etc............anyway........After my surgery she watched me so very close and one day confided in me and from there went to my dr. and ultimately had the surgery.  Nowwwww.......................her & I both are being watched by everyone because we've both taken our fat behinds and had surgery....................To date (1 yr. later...........she has reached GOAL..................over 100+ lost..............................surpassed me, is 25+ lbs less than me....................AND...........................drumroll please      the POSTER CHILD at my doctors office and spoke at his workshop with a before & after picture......because she has done SOOOOOO well.     Me on the otherhand did o.k., but I NEVER reached goal.....and gained 12 lbs. which I'm struggling with now......................................it's really really hard for me.......but I'm harder on myself than anyone...........................so I lift my head up...........count the loss that I do have.........................and keep it movin......................eating salads & protein of course..........and wishing I could exercise like you !


Hang In there......................you are still all that and a bag of chips !

MKae

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