In about 12 hours, I will have my surgery
I have so many emotions racing through my head right now (along with racing to the bathroom b/c of the bowel prep..lol). It seems like I have been so focused on just getting to this point, I can't believe I am almost at the finish line. By this time tomorrow night, I will be on the losing side. I'm not scared of the surgery..I have had complete peace about the surgery the whole time I've been doing everything required. But, I am starting to ask myself about the whole emotional aspect of it all. Will I even know myself after the weight is gone? For my whole adult life, I have been overweight. I don't know what it is like to be thin. I'm entering into a whole new world here. I am sure the journey will be amazing, but there is a little bit of fear of the unknown. I have to shift my thinking from just getting to the surgery date to working the tool to lose weight.
I'm just going to look at it as one day at a time. Not only will there be physical changes, but emotional ones as well.
*deep breathe*
See you all on the other side.
Judy