I know where you are coming from. I had surgery September 6th and just came home from the hospital today. My intestines were "asleep" or "lazy" so air wasn't moving like it was supposed to. I had a health problem previously which required me to take a lot of medicine, and NO ONE there bothered to help teach me how to take it. I finally figured out that I would only be allowed to take 1 pill every 30 minutes until they are all gone. I was allergic to morphine and scratched like i had lice, I puked for 2 days from the barium test, and went to the bathroom for days because the nurses forgot to take my laxatives out of my meds. And then there was the pain...UGH, I am sure you know. Ok, this is where I feel a connection with you... I am 27, single, and no kids, so we have that in common. Onto the regretting part...I laid in that hospital bed balling to my mother and saying "Mama, what the hell have I doneeeee, I prolly coulda lost this weight had I tried harder, why did I do thissssss???" And she told me to think positive. She told me that I had only been getting bigger and that I had made the right decision whether or not I felt like I had at the time. I was drained and dehydrated the night before my discharge day, which by the way I didn't know I was getting out today. Anywho...That afternoon I prayed to God to please help me get through this, to help me be strong, to find encouragement, and also a few other things. Finally they put the IV in and last night I put my glasses on for the first time last night and turned on the TV for the first time. I was even singing those songs they play while advertising CD's for TimeLife. I guess God answered my prayer. I don't go to church, and I rarely pray, but something told me to. I am back at home and feel great. I just have to remind myself to sip sip sip. I know how you must feel and I wish I was there to comfort you the way my mother, nurses,and the doctor did me. I knew this wasn't gonna be easy, but didn't know it was gonna be this darn hard, I hope that makes sense. I have lost 18 pounds so far and have been walking, cleaning, singing, and just trying to adjust. If you are anything like me, you still want this. You want to live a longer healthier life. I am no profressional, just sharing my story. I have read posts of others who had a reversal, and I am glad they got what they wanted. I believe I deserve a reversal if I decide I want one. We all need to do what is right for us, and I won't encourage you not to get a reversal, but I encourage you to seek support from others in a group, on here, from your family, or doctor. Sit and think about how you felt prior to making the final call on having the surgery. Weigh your options. I really wish I could help. I will say a prayer for you, and maybe you should to. Just ask God to help you figure out what to do. I wish you all the best in the world. You can email me ANYTIME if you just need someone to listen or anything. (((Huggs))) Amanda

Joan, I understand completely what you are feeling. I had convinced myself to have gastric surgery, first I thought the RNY, then I decided on the DS. I went to see Dr Gagner in NY. All the time researching information. I still have the endoscopy to go, but right now I feel quite certain that what I am going to try to do is have a sleeve gastrectomy done. You might want to check that out, it's generally only done as a first step operation in those who are super obese. Then after they lose enough they do a second surgery. You keep your intestines and the only thing lost is the outer curvature of your stomach. You might want to check it out.

Hi Julie, Yes i still want to have an reversal. I've lost a lot of weight but. Now i get headaches a lot and dizzy. I eat good and take my vitamins. But the doctor seems to think i'm doing okay. I'm also tired a lot. I thought i was suppose to have more energy. Not feel drained al the time. So hopefully next year i can get it reversed so i can feel better and asborb my vitamins like i'm suppose to. Thanks for caring

Hi Kathy, I don't know if I ever responded to you. Thanks for taking the time to reply and share your experiences. I hope things speed up for you. I wouldn't want you to be in my boat. Well, I went to the doctor and an upper-GI showed that I have a stricture. My pouch is about 4 cm and it should be 10 cm. I have to go in for them to put some type of scope down my throat and widen it. They've got to knock me out. I still say I should have lost more but they gave me some song and dance about my body going into "starvation mode" for lack of a better term. Not eating enough and my body is being stubborn. I'm trying to improve on my water. I drank 64 oz easily before the surgery -now it's about 1/2 that. I'm doing the protein thing, but it's getting pretty hard trying to make the suff taster better. I had been drinking chocolate mixed with banana and then this wkend I go mixed berry and added strawberries, yogurt, etc and it's still gross. Well, I've written you a book. I'll go now. Take care!

Celi, Surgery is a transforming experience. Learning to deal with the post operative emotional baggage is one of the things I have been warned about. When the surgery is done, you are a new individual. You have been given a tool and now you have to have the confidence to use it properly. Although this may seem the easy way out, my suggestion is short term counseling. Especially someone who has experience treating post op WLS people. You had the courage and confidence to climb up on that table and have the surgery. You jumped through all of their hoops. Damn! You've done a lot girl! Take stock of your accomplishments, keep sight of your goals. Seek someone to talk to about the internal emotional issues that are impacting you. You'll be alright! Anne in NH (410) 379/?/140 Pre-Op