Someone please just tell me this is a phase I'm going through!!

Last night I was feeling this is the worse thing I could have ever done. My RNY was 12/15, nothing is normal anymore. I can't go out and eat and drink beer with my boyfriend, I can't have sex right now,  I want to eat want I want and go exercise it off I guess. I wanna go out drinking, and have rough sex if I want too, I don't wanna be told to take it easy, you just had surgery, or no your not going out this weekend.
Belive me I thought of this surgery for 2 years, it wasn't a wake up and do it thing. I lost 152lbs waiting to get the surgery and went in Monday at 185, I want my ultimate goal of 115, but is it really worth all this misery and unhappiness.
I wanna bake and eat Christmas cookies with my daughter and have the normal holiday stuff like every year. I know it will be more normal next year but today I'm really regereting this and I didn't know where else to rant.  I would love to say I did this for my health, but other than a major yo-yo dieter, I had nothing wrong with me except a slightly elevated cholosterol level. So it was all for vanity and self-esteem boost, which I know once I start feeling better will make this all worth it. Just had to get this out this morning, before I had to pay for some Saturday psych appt, and that just would have been $$$$$ . Ok I guess I'm done, thank you for listening!!!

Have a great weekend everyone!!! Watch out for those grumpy last minute shoppers!!!!

Take a deep breathe, it WILL be ok.  The initial shock on the body is tough.

Thanks, I am feeling better today, got out yesteday shopping and tanning and normal stuff. Actually after re-reading that I sound pretty dumb!!
You look beautiful!! Your pictures alone are an inspiration for me to shut my mouth and be thankful for what I've just recieved!!

Sweetie, you don't sound dumb at all.  The emotions one goes through after surgery is tough, that is why we are here so you can have comfort that this to shall pass.  I'm glad you were able to get out and about yesterday.

Just take it one day at a time, be kind to yourself.

"Sometimes the hardest part of the journey is believing that you're worthy of the trip" Unknown 

I just wanted to tell you that is the best quote I think I have ever read.  I am scheduled to have the lap band next week and have been on full liquids for 7 days now...I am emotionally worn out but I read that and seemed to feel better instantly.
Thank you for that.
Elaine

Thanks Elaine, sending best wishes to you on your surgery.  It's such a "trip" for sure, lol; but well worth all the WOWs about to come your way.

I cannot take credit for that quote, I read it in a book and it smacked me across the head.   It definitely does say something for all of us.

Good luck!

Yes take a breath....
When the weight starts falling off you will be glad that you had the surgery. Yes it does still bother me at times I can't have this or that, BUT I probably would not live as long if i had not had the surgery. I do eat out but you have to be very careful and i did not even try that for a while after surgery.I did SF cookies for me this year and it was nice I did not feel so left out.
I think you were helping future health problems, it was not all vane.
These feelings are NORMAL you are having and please keep coming and talking about them.......
We are here for you.

It passes and you will have different feelings about food, but you will get to do much more than you think down the road and you will then complain that you hate that you know you can go have a beer with your boyfriend!  LOL!

Just pay attention in a year and a half.  There will come another change.  That one isn't so good, and you won't even know it is WLS related unless you know to watch for it.

I can't discuss on here, but you can email me and I will disuss privately.

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Perry

Baited we are?

So?

You can bake Christmas cookies with your daughter but you can't eat them. I know it seems bad at first but it will get better. You didn't go through all of this to ruin it by having beer and cookies did you? It needs to be a lifestyle change.