Did weight loss surgery stop the Merry go round of losing, gaining, and I give up?

I am doing some major purging and OMGosh, found journals of my attempts to lose weight on my own. I also found all my pre-op stuff for weight loss surgery and plastic surgery. WOW...what a trip down memory lane. For me, what was an eye opener is I finally got off that nightmare merry go round. Yes, I still have to watch what I eat, yes I still have to follow the rules and yes if I don't I will regain. I found this page out of a journal from 1999, I had surgery in 2004. Please note the comments, messed up, messed up big time and then no more entries. That is because I gave up...as I did for years. That nightmare merry go round.

Did you find this to be true? While you have to follow the rules to stay compliant and at goal is the nightmare Merry go round gone for you?

Reading your "messed up" lines made me tear up some, Kathy. That overwhelming feeling of failure apparently still sting even now. I never journaled, but would try to eat better only to derail myself.

I hope for me the merry go round is over. My relationship with food has changed a lot, but I know that I cannot trust myself. I will never be able to trust myself with food. If I start thinking I can, I worry the merry go round will start all over again.

Awww I didn't mean to make you cry. I had forgotten how bad it was, but that was my life. When I saw some of the photos of just how big I was I cried. I honestly don't remember being that big. You know the Monday I will start my diet, every Monday. WLS saved my life

It won't I promise if you stick to the basics and take it one day at a time. Even if you have a Messed up day just get back to the protein and stay away from the devil carbs. Message me any time. YOU GOT THIS!!

OMG! Yes, I am no longer going up and down, feeling like a failure. I surpassed ever goal my surgeon set for me plus my own. I never thought I'd get down to 175 let alone 150. I'm at a place where I feel great and can do anything I want to do. I go to Six Flags with my son and daughter in law and ride all the rides, I play on the FLOOR with my grand daughter , and I have no problem getting down to work with the puppies that come to my training classes.

This has got to be the best thing I have ever done for myself. I would do it again in a New York minute!

Liz

It was the worst wasn't it. I had to stop and think, yes that is no longer my reality. I would start on Monday, mess up before the week was over and then eat like no tomorrow saying I will start on Monday. YIKES

I am 13 years post-op from DS and maintain with no effort at all. I snack all day to get the protein I need (100g), but I don't diet or follow any other regimen.

100g protein

100oz beverages

full fat

One thing I've realised post-surgery is that it's not my fault I couldn't lose weight before! I have to eat below 800 calories a day to lose weight, and there's no way I could have stuck to a diet that restricted for more than a few weeks without the sleeve.

I wish the medical community would understand how hard it is

Kathy, your journal reminded me of all the homemade graphs, flow charts, calendars and lists I would make each time I started a new diet. They would be hanging on the refrigerator, mirrors and walls above scales. I would take them down and start all over again with new ones every time I failed or gave up. The big nightmare merry-go-round has stopped, but I am still on a little baby merry-go-round with the last 10 pounds:-)

I was right there with you! Those last 10 pounds can be aggravating. Stay strong, stick with the basic rules and move. Also, try change it up a bit with the eating and moving.... Good Luck