Today sucks
i suppose I'm a WLS success, but today sucks. I have significant muscle pain today. I exercise regularly, but everyone once in a while I awaken a different group of muscles that tell me in no quiet fashion they'd have preferred to stay sleeping. I feel Mom guilt cause I didn't have the energy to run around for the things my kids wanted. And they are eating crap for dinner cause the thought of walking the market and then cooking a meal makes me wince. And since I'm in pain I know I need to modify my routine tomorrow, but I feel guilty for doing that and feel like I'm shortchanging my dedication to post-op life.
My point in sharing this- is there can still be ugly days post WLS. Not related to eating, not related to the # on the scale. WLS is not a cure all for a super happy life. Ugly days take on all forms and there are a million and one ways we can berate ourselves.
5'6.5" High weight:337 Lowest weight:193/31 BMI: Goal: 195-205/31-32 BMI
Life just ticks along, with its ups and downs.
Don't be hard on yourself, though I do understand the mom guilt.
I have multiple sclerosis, which means I have had to modify quite a lot. There's a lot of self-doubt and guilt wrapped up in that - am I making excuses for myself? Am I acting like a victim of cir****tance, as I did for so many years?
I have an idea in my mind of who I aspire to be, and everytime I slow down, have pain or other challenges that interfere with my WLS plan, I have to step back and remind myself who I want to be.
It is a tight rope between accountability and self-forgiveness. I wonder, does it ever get easier?
Referral - 05/16, Orientation @ HRH - 19/08/16, Surgeon - 06/04/17, NUT/SW/RN - 26/6/17 VSG - 11/10/17 Pre-Op - 27 lbs M1: 22 lbs M2: 14 lbs M3: 11 lbs M4: 13 lbs M5: 9 lbs M6: 9 lbs M7: 7 lbs
Sorry you had a rough day. Sometimes you just need to rest. Hope you got some.
Cynthia 5'11" RNY 7/23/2014
Goal reached 17 months. 220lb Weight Loss
Plastic Surgery Dr. Joseph Michaels - LBL and Hernia Repair 2/29/16, Arm Lift, BL, 5/2/16, Leg Lift 7/25/16
#lifeisanadventure #fightthegoodfight #noregrets
I had to learn when I became a chronic illness warrior that when I need to rest, I need to accept it. The family can pick up some of the slack, and some things just have to be "let go". I think we as women put a lot of guilt onto ourselves when we don't match the inner picture of what we think is right. When really, no one but us expects that perfect wife/mother/woman stuff.
I hope tomorrow is better for you.
* 8/16/2017 - ONEDERLAND!! *
HW 306 - SW 297 - GW 175 - Surg VSG with Melanie Hafford on 8/17/2016
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