I have had weight loss sx since 2005.

since then I have gained and lost . well it is 2018 and I have no appetitie. I am down to 132 # and when I look in the mirror I see AN overweight person what is going on ? I am 5'6" tall. help please

Body dysmorphia is a legitimate problem. Have you spoken to a therapist or counselor?

I second Julie's comment. Body dysmorphia is real and can be extremely debilitating. Are you talking with your therapist about this? Sometimes we need help to get our brains in touch with our bodies. Anorexia can also be a problem in post-op life. Either way, please talk to your therapist.

Thank you *****sponded. I dont have a therapist. I just want to feel myself again

It might be wise to find a therapist?

Body dysmorphia is very real and very serious. You need professional help to get you back feeling like yourself again. Trying to "fix it" on your own probably won't work.

Well I am still struggling with allcahol. Down to 127. Ok with that but I keep wondering why I want to drink. Is there something wrong with me. I am seeing a therapist now but why the alcaholism?

It's not something wrong with you. It's very common after WLS, and it's called transfer addiction. Before surgery, when you were stressed or bored, you turned to food. After surgery, that option isn't available (at least for a while) and people turn to alcohol or drugs. There are several people on the forum who have been through it and come out the other side. They can probably give you some good advice. And I hope you're talking to the therapist about your problems with alcohol.

Originally, doctors hoped that since the surgery makes people feel the effects of alcohol more quickly, they would drink less. However, that turned out not to be the case, and people were developing problems with alcohol or drugs who never had such problems before. Back when you had the surgery, they probably didn't warn you about the problem because they may not have known at that time.

Alcohol has never been important to me, but after surgery I gave it up completely to be on the safe side.