I feel like giving up
Sending you a cyber hug as I read your vent (vent away) I recall feeling similarly. I hope you are able to figure out a way to have weight loss surgery. It will definitely help some of the issue you have mentioned. I will say this... I think you should address the above the neck stuff... I know you said you had no insurance coverage for WLS but I am assuming you have some coverage (Medicare, ACA plan?) that would cover therapy. I think you will find even after weight loss surgery some of the issues will remain, perhaps worsen (body image stuff) so getting a head start on that can only help... along with healthy eating choices and moving as much as you are able.
Your Weight Matters National Convention (Limited amount of scholarships are available starting April 17th. worth a try at one: http://www.ywmconvention.com/convention-details/scholarship- program/ ) is a great place to get some good education and support.
Wishing you brighter days!
