NSV - I had JUST one

I think having WLS is less about the actual cutting and stitching and the new feeling of fullness. It's a head game. So I was lucky and before I got cut I had a come to jesus and the result was I am a cookie monster. I love sugar too much and once I get it, it's hard to stop it. So I said NO more of that crap just before I got cut and certainly after. I became a terror against sugar. I even tossed out my chewable vitamins because they had too much sugar. So that was a bit overboard but what it showed me was that I was serious, and while in control that I had to let go and eat the chewable vitamins so I bought them again when the tape you swollow was too much to handle 2 weeks out (yes I did that) LOL.

Anyway my point is you just need to sit down and have "the talk" with yourself. You have started that by the way you started this post. You were happy you only had one. That tells me before you would have been know to eat 4,6,8 or more over a day. So what to do what to do. Well the anwser that most of us come to is well I ate less and less is great! Except that is what leads to I ate 2 and isn't that great. Where it's really going is a little darker than even that.

For me I had to admit that things with sugar only leads to more things with sugar. That second cookie might not be on your list today but you might crave some yogurt, and that's ok... right? But that might get your sugary wacked out brain to crave something else later. Sugar for me and many others just isn't a good pair. I make bad decisions about sugar, I eat too much of it here or there or in places I wasn't planning on.

The important thing you need to decide here is what foods do you want to be apart of your life now? I had to let go of sugar in all things. I at 1 year out am allowing for a coffee with sugar in the morning and I'm going to say while I had a solid control over it early on that I feel it may becoming an issue. I see the chocolates bowl at work and I've now been known to have one when before there is no way it even looked or sounded good to me.

Short story: it's not the cookie that you should think about it's the role food will have in your life and not the amount of it. The amount of it has been assisted by your doc but the more powerful part is left to you. You must decide what you're putting in your belly.

I'm in my pre surgery "OMG I have to have one more of..." stage. So I sat here, reading the responses and thinking 'OMG they're being so hard on her!' then I became very conscious of my hand crinkling away up a sleeve of Thin Mints. I. Had. Not. Stopped. At. One.

TWO great things happened here! The first and most important is that you stopped yourself AND you got great advice about not putting yourself in that position again. The second great thing was that I gave my remaining Thin Mints to a skinny, junk food eating coworker :)

Having one of something you love and stopping is a victory!