Depression

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry. That is horrible. :(

FWIW, I have been taking Lexapro for depression for about 14 years. I like it because, personally, I didn't suffer any adverse side effects. Additionally, the couple of times I decided I didn't need it, I didn't have any withdrawal issues, just stopped taking it. Unfortunately, life decided to continue to throw more than I could handle my way, so I'm still taking it. Without it I am a short-tempered, angry biotch who yells at people and cries a lot. With it, I am the patient, even-tempered person I was before depression, and I rarely cry unless it's for a good reason. I've never tried any other medication, this one has always worked great for me.

Hey there. I'm so very sorry for your losses. Congratulations on your sobriety! Alcohol use only makes depression and anxiety worse, so stopping the alcohol at least will decrease that a bit. It will get progressively better the longer you're sober. I've a little over four & half years sober. Sometimes it is still day by day. One of the main things that always keeps me sober is knowing I would have to start from day one again, and I've got too much time behind me. That was as strong, if not stronger, at 90 days as it is now. Depression and anxiety can be so frickin' debilitating. I was 23 when I first got help for depression and anxiety. I went off and on meds for a few years before I realized it was something I could not live without. Meds can help, and some of us have to take them indefinitely. But therapy is where the hard work is done. The worst part is trying to find a therapist that 'fits'. Sometimes you have to tell your story over and over again, and that is daunting. But the healing relationship you can gain makes it worth it in the long run. For medications, go see a psych professional. Psychiatrist or Psych Nurse Practitioner, but a Primary Care Physician does not have the specialized training of a Mental Health Professional, and they often can do far more harm than good. Sleep, Exercise, good nutrition and proper hydration are vital to good mental health. Sleep especially.