There is life after being sober

Well tomorrow will be 11 months that I am sober. I have to say I actually have joy and some peace since I stopped drinking. I do go to AA meetings. At first I hated to go to them. I found them very scary. I think since I didn't trust myself why should I trust anyone else.

I go out with friends I go to weddings and other gatherings. I know this was the best gift I gave myself.

My anxiety used to be so bad. I felt like I was crawling out of my skin. The feelings of suicide was always in my head. I felt the world would be a better place without me in it. I am not saying this to make people feel bad for me.

Having my family wanting to be with me is one of the greatest gifts I have gotten also. My daughter calls me weekly were before it was only if she needed money for something.

I am working on being a better person. 

To wake up and know I didn't make an ass out of myself is such a wonderful thing. I don't have to fake it to people. I blacked out on a regular basis.  To me or anyone this really isn't fun.

Life can be short if we don't take care of ourselves. So please if you think life is boring without alcohol try to get some help. 

I have been a drinker since the age of 15. Also a food addicted. Lets just say there is life after WLS. And even a better life in sobriety. 

Last week I had a horrible incident happen to me. A year ago I would have thought of drinking and getting wasted. The thought of alcohol didn't even go through my head. 

What a fabulous victory for you! That is just awesome. :)

You are a fabulous human. I'm so proud of all the very hard work you've done. 

Congratulations on 11 months.  Your awareness really shows in your posts.  I hope you realize that you're an inspiration to so many here battling cross addictions.    Thanks for sharing this part of your life with us as a reminder.  xoxo 

Thank you. Life is so much better. It sucks to have something control you like alcohol. I have found I can be alone and be okay. I don't need to get pickled  to feel better. 

You've had quite the journey, S, you should be very proud of what you have achieved x

Thank you Kim. I do not cry like I used to. I am such a stronger woman than I used to be. I will say you saying I should be proud did make me teary eyed. I know what a ***** I can be.

My life is so much better. I can actually sing and be silly without being a drunk asshole. 

Sobriety is simply amazing on you. 

Thank you all for your kind words. I really post so if there is someone who is having a hard time with alcohol or other addictions. That it is possible to get better.

Recovery is not always easy. Feelings that I have never had before are hard to deal with at times. 

I had a friend who's daughter just OD over this past weekend. She did not die. She is only 21 years old. She had a major stroke and they are not sure how long of a recovery will take.

Learning to be content and loving ourselves is not always easy. Totally possible. 

I am very lucky to have a great forum to come to for support. I enjoy giving support to. 

Let me also post. Not everyone who drinks will become an alcoholic. 

Alcoholism is rampant in my family (as in many).  So wonderful that you have been able to find sobriety and the benefits of it!