Any one bipolar and battling meds and weight gain?

I'm one of those . I was getting up and making and eatin through the night . I had. I idea . 

I had RNY in 2001, hw: 302, lw: 171, cw: back up to 250, I was diagnosed bipolar about 6 years ago. I have been on most of the popular antipsychotic drugs sometimes up to 4 at a time. It has been a curse because the weight gain causes me to have more depression. I feel like I'm doomed. I started a back on track program yesterday trying to live one day at a time, drinking baritric protein drinks 4 times a day with one protein and veggie meal. I can't give up. I used to think I was invincible after wls but found out I was mentally ill...the struggle is very real I just haven't found anyone other than my dr to talk to about this struggle. I have come to blame the meds on my weight gain but in reality I know it's all me. That's a very difficult realization.

thnak you everyone for sharing your stories with me. I appreciate your input and don't feel so alone.

Protein drinks won't get you "back on track," the only way to do that is by eating the way you SHOULD. It started as something of a joke, but check out the link in my sig to the 5 day meat test, sometimes eating nothing but protein for a week is a really good way to reset your mind!

I agree that protein is the answer

I can't  totally identify with the emotional eating, I have a bad habit of feeling like after I go thru something emotionally difficult I deserve _______ to eat to reward myself for handling the situation. I'm taking Latuda, Lamictal and now metformin and currently have a clear thought process, taking it one day at a time. Thank you for sharing.

I meant to say that CAN totally identify with emotional eating

I am dealing with this exact situation now. For the past two years my doctor has been working with my medicine to try to find the right combination for bipolar 2. I had the sleeve in 2012 and maintained down to 150.0 lbs. until the beginning of 2015. I gained 90 lbs. in eighteen months. I had revision surgery to bypass on 10/28/16. I have lost 38 lbs. but I have had weeks of stalls and barely eating anything! I am trying to wean myself off seroquil now. I take it at night and it is the only thing that helps me sleep. But I guess I will eventually wear myself out and sleep without it.

It is definitely a vicious cycle. Depression medication caused weight gain which caused MORE depression!

I loved how Seroquel made me sleep, but the weight gain absolutely killed me. So I totally feel your pain! Fingers crossed you can find something else that will help with the sleep, even if you need to be on a benzo or something short term.

Right now I'm on Wellbutrin during the day and topimax at night . It puts me right to sleep , but I'm finding that I can. It form sentences and I completely blank out in the middle of telling a story or writing something down and the thought never returns to me . I could. It make out a  Grocery list the other day..... it's scary . I also find I don't like the person I am so I know others can't like me, nobody can do anything to suit me. If someone tries to help me load the dishwasher I just go reload it bc it isn't done the right way and I'm frustrated .

I watched the show Kate plus 8 the other day and totally felt like " I act just like Kate Goslin " and I do not wanna be her !!!  

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