I feel separated from myself

SkinnyScientist
on 9/27/16 4:47 am

I still feel this way (i.e. not recognzing myself or body parts). For example, I still gravitate to size 12 clothes on the rack.  I can wear anything from size 4 (levi's)- 8 (some european brands) but I just always go to size 12. Any garment I pick up just seems to be a 12.  I did it when I was a size 32 too.

 

When in pictures, I have to look for the clothes I was wearing when the picture was taken. Cuz I look "different" than what I think I look. Sometimes I am skinnier than what I expected, sometimes way fatter looking!  Yikes!

 

Sometimes I look in the mirror and think "Wow!  You look really good! How did this happen!?!?!"  Like I just "appeared" versus going through a grueling year long weightloss phase complete with 2 hours of exercise per day. I saw myself everyday during this "transformation" yet I seem to look new to me too.

I am going onto 3 years post op. DOnt know if it will change.

Oh yes, I still identify with obese people. When I am on a train or a bus and someone wants to sit next to me, I squish all the way over to "give them enough room" from my formerly hulking huge frame which isnt there anymore.

RNY Surgery: 12/31/2013; 

Current weight (2/27/2015) 139lbs, ~14% body fat

Three pounds below Goal!!! Yay !  

supershopper
on 9/27/16 7:14 am

Same situation here on the heavy since 5-6 years old. Sometimes I pass by a mirror and don't recognize who it is.

When I put on a pair of jeans that are a size 6 i think-- how can all this fat skin fit in here ?

one time my husband and I were at the library and he nearly walked right past me. He forgot what I looked like, I think he was looking for my 'shape' and forgot.

 

HW 305 SW 278 Surgery weight 225 GW 160 LW: 118.8

RNY 12/15/2015,

GB removal 09/2016,

Twisted bowel/hernia repair 08/2017

M1 Dec 2015-13.0, M2-7.0, M3-14.5, M4-9.4, M5-7.1, M6 9.8, M7-7.6 ,M8- 7.6, M-9 5.5, M10-6.4, M11- 2.2, M12 Dec 2016- 5.8

GentleDomenic
on 9/27/16 7:44 am - Canada

It's very normal , I feel like that every day like I'm not even the same person. I felt t was enough to get some therapy. Apparently it's not that uncommon and it happens from time to time. If it's getting bad talk to someone 

Neesie57
on 9/27/16 7:11 pm
VSG on 08/04/15

I do recognize myself in the mirror new when I see my reflection, but I still think of myself as fat.  I was in Vegas over the weekend, and was nervous about getting on the plane, because I didn't want to spill over into the seat next to me.  Then, I remembered that I don't do that anymore, I fit in the seat and have room left over.  

Today, at work, my co-worker called me "tiny", when talking about making yoga pants.  She said that a printed fabric I chose for the project was too large for someone so tiny.  At first I didn't realize she meant me. 

 

5' 5" tall. VSG on August 4, 2015/ Starting weight 239.9/ Surgery weight 210.9/ Current weight 137.4/ Goal weight 140/ No longer overweight, now a NORMAL weight. Now that I'm at goal, it's time to move on to maintenance!!!!!!!!

 

 

 

Sharon SW-267
GW-165 CW-167 S.

on 9/28/16 3:07 am, edited 9/27/16 8:07 pm - PA
RNY on 12/22/14

There are more changes to get used to than you would think.  There is a Norwegian study of 22 woman (post WLS) from a psychological point.  Google for it - if you cannot find it message me and I will dig it up.

Sharon

Smile_and_nod
on 9/28/16 7:40 pm
VSG on 01/18/16

I will look it up! Thanks. 

Deanna798
on 9/28/16 7:26 pm
RNY on 08/04/15

I dissociate at times as well.  Normally it happens to me when I'm in stressful situations.  It seems that you may have been using your obesity as a buffer against something and now that it's taken away, you don't have that to protect you anymore.

I'm just guessing here, I'm not a therapist, but I'm speaking from experience because I've been living it for 43 years.

I highly recommend therapy.  It's helped me, and while I'm still living it, it's starting to get better.

Age: 44 | Height: 5' 3" | Starting January 2015: 291 | RNY 8/4/15 with Dr. Arthur Carlin| Goal: 150

Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. ~Proverbs 19:20

Maggielynn37
on 10/1/16 6:32 pm - IN

Weight loss is a life changing event and without a doubt will test every emotion you have.  I am 1 year out, 150lbs down and I still sometimes dont recognize the body I am in.  Stay positive and reach out to your support system when needed, you are never alone.  

 

    

        
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