Stop.... Don't do it!.... Blog Self Reflection....

Aug 20, 2016

Back on 5/27/2012 I wrote: "STOP...Don't Do It!"

Did this subject catch your eye? I haven't posted in a couple years, I am 2 years post-op gastric bypass and have maintained 150 lb weight loss and weigh 145 lbs. This is a reality check for those who are struggling. STOP DONT DO IT is an honest statement if your not working on your mental health. This surgery, all of these types of surgery are ONLY TOOLS!!!! You have to work on yourself, why are you the way you are right now? Am I perfect absolutely not!~ It is a lot of hard work, dedication and persistence!!!!! This is not an easy fix!!! It takes work.... But what is good... anyone can do it if s/he puts their mind to it!..... You have one life to live right here, what way do you want to do it? It took me 3 years before I decided to actually go through the procedure, during those 3 years, I worked on my mind..... a total body makeover if you will.... That is what will make you a success!!!!! Stop with the excuses.... Get help! Get support, Get motivated and Get Love for yourself!!!! ~ Thanks Tina

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Today is August 20, 2016...Reflection

November 2014 I began a hiccup on this journey... I got a call saying.. The doctor would like to see you today. This was the day that took a toll on my mental health. "your mammogram showed a couple of spots I want to refer you to a specialist and have them treat you. That call led to going to Burlington VT for further work up. The breast they are watching but my female reproductive parts are in trouble. I began chemotherapy from November 2014 till June 2015, had a Davinci total hysterectomy with 13, yes thirteen tumors removed... Boy when I woke up I was feeling much better. From July 2015 till now, I have not required any doctor visits, haven't had any complaints of pain or anything!!! HUGE.... However, I required time to work on my own mental health... I ended up taking a less stressful job (still worked full time) but took it easy. Well... All of this HAS led to weight regain! I did not even focus on my health or physical fitness.... Emotional eating returned, senseless eating returned for my own self soothing.

My clothes got tight, bought more comfortable ones and then those got tight and I said to myself one day..then my back went out... Again and it had been a long time..."WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING! STOP THIS INSANITY!" So, I got out the scale, and prepped my head that it was ok whatever number I saw and that it will give me a starting point to begin my journey back to where I was. Stepped on the scale and waited patiently for the number to pop up and the number revealed 189lbs, 44 lbs from where I was. That was this past Monday. This is my beginning point again. I got back here on this support group started reviewing my blog, and responses and decided to reply to this blog post. This is evidence the tool is a tool... If you become mindless on your life journey this is what can happen. Stress and fear is what led to this hiccup. I was afraid, I was physically sick and I wanted to pamper my pain, and I did. Now are there better ways to deal with what I went through... ABSOLUTELY.... But guess what? This is the path that I chose to take at that time. STOP THE INSANITY the self talk provided. I dug out my bariatric paperwork. Started reviewing the basics... Re-entered my obesity hep blog. Went back to using the tools and vow to get serious and use my tool to the BEST of my ability.

I will be here...I am looking for anyone that is in the regain period that would like to be my bariatric buddy to work on this together.... Are you that person? If so... Let me know... Let's do this! I am taking my own advice.... I am stopping with the excuses.... Asking for help and support.... I am getting motivated... And I am back to loving myself.... Thank you Self... For writing this as you have motivated me when I need a little kick to get moving. ~ Tina

I'm glad you're cancer free. And I'm glad you are working on your regain.

Two things that everyone who suffers a bunch of regain have done is, 1 - drift away from OH for a long time, and 2 - put their scale away for a long time.

Keep checking in here, every day. Keep weighing yourself, every day. These things really do help.

Hugs... Glad you hear you are cancer free.  Great point. 

And that you have your right attitude towards the WLS - re tool, and the right approach. Yeah YOU! 

At one point I regained 35 lbs. 10 - was on purpose - the rest - just came along because I was not paupying attention and I simple did not care. I was dealing with some health issues, plus I just did not "see" the weight coming back. I had to buy more comfortable clothes and it took me forever to dress in the morning..(finding things that fit properly)  but until I saw my doc and he cold me obese and told me I need to lose 15 lbs and come back in 3 months - I did not see myself as heavy.  That was a wake up call...

I lost 18 lbs in that 3 months... The rest - 7-9 more - it took me an additional 2 years to lose and maintain. Because the high motivation was not there.  But I kept good food habits (mostly - not all the time - I am a human after all ) and eventually the rest of the regain was gone. 

I wish you best... Good luck. 

Thank you so much for sharing your story, very inspiring!