Thursday *****fest - 7/7/16

Happy  Birthday!! 

Honey...you think you having a bad hair day today - wait until about 4-6 months post surgery.  Thems bad hair months 

Good afternoon all...

Although I'm not coming here to ***** I do need to get something out, and I hope this is an okay place to do that.  August 1 of last year, I moved back home (to Kentucky) from Arkansas.  I've been married and divorced twice, and had finally found the love of my life.  He stayed in Arkansas and supported me moving home (8 hours away).  Long story short, soon after we met, his father passed away unexpectedly, then less than seven months later, my mom passed away unexpectedly, however, both were ill for many many years.  We'd been through he!! in a short amount of time.  My dad's health was declining quickly, I am an only child, his mother's health was also declining quickly, and he was the only one willing to take care of her.  After 4 years together, living together 3 of the 4, I moved and bought a house around the corner from my dad, went to the VA and threw my fit and got his pacemaker, and I am glad to say he is in better shape now.  It's now been nearly a year since I moved home, and I have both my kids in my house and I have my dad (he worked three jobs when I was a child, so I didn't have a relationship with him until I was an adult, my mother was sick my entire life), and I'm content with working and spending time with them.  My honey, on the other hand, is lonely.  He's always had his mom there, and his kids are both there close by, so I get it... I gained family and he lost me.  We've had five amazing years and he's the most wonderful man I've ever met.  We have vacation scheduled week after next, but won't be going anywhere because we can't afford it.  He is coming up to see me, and I believe this will be our good-bye.  My heart is in a million pieces.  I had my surgery 6/14 and he was here to take me to the hospital, spent the night with me at the hospital, then had to leave the next morning, but he was there for me.  I feel broken.  We are going to do it as a mutual agreement, because our families love the other one, and we want to keep it that way.  We want to stay friends, and I pray that happens.  He said he doesn't know which is worse, the thought of us not being us anymore or the thought of actually going out with someone else. 

I believe in God and His plan... I believe that everything happens for a reason.  I believe that what's meant to be, will be.  But even all those beliefs can't calm the pain I feel right now, and I know this is nothing compared to what it'll be when he gets in his truck and backs out of my driveway for the last time.  

Thanks for letting me cry on your shoulders....

Helen

I'm so sorry you are going through a rough time. Maybe something will work out so you two can be together soon.

(((HUGS))) That is such a sad story!!! I hope something good happens soon and that maybe one of these days you two can be together.

I can certainly tell you that I already hurt so bad that I'm physically sick. I am forcing my liquids, protein, and vitamins because I know I have to... But I have no desire to ingest anything.  Things shouldn't be so emotionally hard at three weeks out. I talked to his mom tonight and her heart is broke too. She said he just says he wishes I could come home but he understands and supports me. I'm 44 years old, I'm ready to be with 'the one' that I'm meant to grow old with. But if it's not him, fine, I'm done.... 

trust me you will get back together and he will appreciate you even more because he lost you   (((()))) I know its HARD  big hug

Well what a wonderful day for a b*fest * . My coworkers went out to a social club last Friday night and invited everyone at work. Well only ladies showed up and one male coworker , who brought his girl friend.... Mind you , I didn't go and have not seen them since so... Today I asked if they had fun on Friday night. They all agreed they had a blast but just couldn't believe that the one male that went girlfriend was " thicker than her Facebook photos " they went on and on about how she wasn't fat just thick but they bet the girlfriend wouldn't allow him to come along to social events any more since she saw how hot all of them were .... And her being a thick girl.!!!!! I am super pissed at the shallowness of these ladies that I've been working with and socializing with for about 8 years now. Is that what they think about me ? That I feel less hot than them simply because my scale number is higher ? Oh so pissed off today, I can hardly hold my tongue. What makes them think they are any more attractive because they are thinner ????? Geez lord let me calm down now 

that is so *****y and catty of them.

I would stay clear of the one that started the comments about her.