Depression hit all at once

so today I've been busy packing and cleaning beach chairs and coolers in excited anticipation for a lovely surprise beach / deep sea fishing trip. I was going about my busy morning and felt overcome with emotion out of the blue. Now keep in mind that in my logical mind, I know I'm blessed to have had my surgery, no complications, I'm 5 weeks out and down 16 lbs and , again, logically I know that is awesome . I just started crying and in my head I felt defeated somehow, like this surgery was not gonna be successful for me. My mind is telling me I will fail at this and it was my last resort after my band failing after 6.5 years. My sister and aunt have panic attacks and this feels kinda like what they describe as far as knowing realistically that nothing is wrong but I can't assure myself ? Idk if this makes any sense. I did get put on Wellbutrin after my twins were born 2.5 years ago . I'm not sure if it's not absorbing or its just normal after surgery. I was sobbing and that's just not like me, so I'm trying to talk myself down .... I'm being ridiculous but can't help it 

I dont have any doubt you'll be successful

I've read our fat cells are storage vessels for hormones and as we lose, that they'll be released into our bodies and will cause mood shifts, etc. Perhaps thats whats going on?

Its a big change.. RNY is technically reversible, but compared to a band its much different as far as it goes. Your body may subconsciously be thinking about stuff like that, like a sort of buyers remorse.

I think its good to have a nice cry every so often. If they become consistent, I'd consider talking to someone. 

Aside from that, hope you have an awesome time on your trip! Where are you guys heading?

Panama City . I'm very excited . We travel a lot but this time we are getting to go with 2 of our teens and leaving behind our two year old twins so we will actually get to swim and relax a little..... Which is rare . 

Awesome, have a good time! We're getting pounded by the tropical storm so hopefully ya'll will show up once its past

I'm hoping it's moving out as we pull in lol

Hang in there, sister!

Hormone releases! You are doing a great job with the weight loss, eating, and learning the new ways of RNY :) You will do great!

If the blues last more than a few days or even a week, then you worry about the antidepressant not working...

As long as you are just feeling blue, let the cries come out (I once read an article that said women release toxins when they cry... this is just you cleansing your system).

You will have a great time in Panama!

If you come back sad, then maybe it would be the time to talk to your doc, but for now, cry it out of your system and go have a great time!

Thank you pammie!!

Oh I'm so sorry you're feeling that way!  I know emotions can run high and low after surgery so just try to be patient with yourself. You may want to also talk to your doctor about your meds.  My psychiatrist has been watching me closely since surgery because he said the surgery can really change the way we absorb the meds and the amount or type of med may need changed.           Relax and enjoy your trip :)   

If you're taking the extended release version of Wellbutrin, you might need to change it.  Since our bodies have been altered, medications that are slow release aren't as effective anymore.

Check with your doctor.  

Yes it is xr. I will def talk to him about that