NSV -- I'll take it!
Yesterday I had an outpatient procedure that involved having me sit in a wheelchair as I was taken to and from the radiology dept. I am very aware of being 5'10" and a few pounds shy of my goal weight (175 lbs.). The radiologist was of average height and weight and pushed me in the chair, poor man. I feel uncomfortable being pushed in a wheelchair: I wasn't sick, for Pete's sake!
When I was ready to be discharged, the nurse asked if I wanted to walk to the lobby or if I preferred a wheelchair. I said I would walk, and I mentioned that I felt embarrassed being pushed in a chair. She asked me why I felt that way, and I said I'm not a small person. She said I'm not a big person. I'm not a big person? What an odd thought! I'll have to work my head around that idea: might take time and effort, but it's probably a good idea to get started 
Height: 5'10" HW: 264.4 Bariatric information session 1/21/15. Insurance approves VSG 4/30/15. Surgery date 5/28/15.
It's so hard to wrap our heads around NOT being big. I get that. Congrats on the NSV!
A few months ago I had to get allergy patch testing done. The nurse that was putting them on said "good thing the doc didn't order a ton of extra patches, it is always so hard to find the space on SMALL LADIES LIKE YOU". I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants, then had to explain why I was laughing. hahaha
HW: 328 Program start weight: 309 SW:275.8 CW: 154.6 (12/14/16)
You are no longer a big person. We are the same size. I mentioned to someone yesterday that I had 40 pounds left to lose and she was like- where are you going to lose it from? I've gotten that comment before from others.
It is a strange feeling- I still walk by mirrors when I'm out and don't recognize myself.
HW 305 SW 278 Surgery weight 225 GW 160 LW: 118.8
RNY 12/15/2015,
GB removal 09/2016,
Twisted bowel/hernia repair 08/2017
M1 Dec 2015-13.0, M2-7.0, M3-14.5, M4-9.4, M5-7.1, M6 9.8, M7-7.6 ,M8- 7.6, M-9 5.5, M10-6.4, M11- 2.2, M12 Dec 2016- 5.8
I love this NSV. I still struggle with the changes in my body, so I get exactly where you are coming from.
Age: 44 | Height: 5' 3" | Starting January 2015: 291 | RNY 8/4/15 with Dr. Arthur Carlin| Goal: 150
Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. ~Proverbs 19:20
It's strange how our eyes seem to work. I never understood just how large/overweight I'd become until I saw photos of myself, and there weren't many of those as I hated having my photo taken. Now it's as if my eyes don't get how much I've changed. I still have this picture in my head of how I looked in those photos. Having the surgery done and trying to adapt to a new way of life is hard work, but so is the process of changing what goes on in our heads. Who knew?
Height: 5'10" HW: 264.4 Bariatric information session 1/21/15. Insurance approves VSG 4/30/15. Surgery date 5/28/15.
