Am I totally awful? 18+ only please. TY

you will almost 100% have some loose skin. I'm going to be blunt. He sounds like an immature asshole. He is not wedding material, not the other way around. Tell him to kiss your much smaller ass.

Because the skinny girls won't have his loser ass they know he's a piece of work and they won't give him the time of day!!

I agree with others here...this is not the man for you.  If he will only marry you when you are "skinny" HE'S NOT HUSBAND MATERIAL!  Run from this man as fast as you can....

Lose all the weight you want.  Build your confidence and self-esteem.  If you are living together, I would suggest finding your own place. Don't settle for any man because he is paying attention to you.

Run, away as fast as you can.

It will always be something and you will never be good enough to marry. He is dealing with his low self esteem by making you the issue. Concentrate on YOU!  Be the best you can be and you will see clearly he is not for you!

Keep us posted on how you are doing.   

Personally if your boyfriend/ husband does not make you feel beautiful and cherished then he is not worth it.  By the sounds of it he does not. 

I would love my husband if he gained weight and visa-versa.  My love is not contingent on weight.   

Follow your instincts & dump him, plus he's peepin, no gawking at other girls too? Build up your self esteem & have the confidence to know that you deserve better., because you do.

Only you know what's right for you but IMO this does not sound like a classic case of losing weight, feeling hot and wanting to dump the person who has stood by your side. This sounds like you maybe gaining confidence in yourself and realizing that maybe your man hasn't treated you the best and realizing that you deserve better because YOU DO. And you did before too!! You just didn't see it before. But take advantage of this clarity and re-evaluate what you want before marriage because that **** is supposed to be for life. It sounds like you take it seriously, which is awesome!! So seriously think about what you want and maybe see that what you might want is someone who thinks you're beautiful at any size. Because we all deserve that.

Love that comes with conditions isn't love at all.

Not at all, you are exactly right, what you described made me cringe.  My fiance would never say something like a wont marry you because your fat and any good man wouldn't.  Your so concerned with saving your virginity for a husband (which I respect you completely) but really it should also be saved for someone who will love you fat or skinny, which this guy is definitely not. 

Let's just call this for what it is, he's abusive.

He may not be hitting you physically but he is playing with you mentally and emotionally. Breaking you down, telling you that you're not good enough, disrespecting you by looking at other women in front of you and saying hurtful things.

I guarantee you that he will not change. He has low self-esteem, likes to manipulate you and is really insecure.

You are beautiful inside and out at any size, shape or color. You are young and just starting your life, please love yourself enough to put your health and happiness before any man. You deserve the best life that you can create for yourself.

Normally I would say; 'Lose that zero and get you a hero' but since we're on OH, I'll say; 'Lose that fool and use your tool'

Best of luck to you.