Too much anguish.
on 2/26/16 3:01 pm
I live in a secluded, rural area of western WA. in a rainforest. Laid back people. less than 100 families in this region.
Today I went to my 6 month check-up. Everything was great. They asked me to speak at the seminars. I told them what I told Cathy W. from OH, when she asked me to write a story. It's a 2 hour drive to the hospital, on the way there, a cop goes flying by us going about 100. Then a swat team, then another swat team. We were like "what the hell"?
Then on the way home, we see 4 news teams on my street. My street is 10 miles long, with 10 houses spread out a mile apart. This man called Mason county sheriffs to say "he was on his last cigarette", "and his family was gone". He then finished his horror by killing himself. 5 in total. I can't even remember the last killing here. I will pray for all of those killed.
It will be on the National news tonight of course. Tomorrow, a new one will happen somewhere else. Critical mass=random terror.
on 2/26/16 3:45 pm
I don't know why something like thi****s one harder, the closer in proximity it is. I heard something years ago that has really helped me. It goes, "if you share your joy with others, it will increase the joy". "If you share your grief with others, it will decrease the grief". I think it goes like that. I was really stunned and saddened by this. Thank you for helping me decrease my grief White dove. Is it ever going to get better I wonder? I hope we have not hit the tipping point yet, and become unable to stem this terrible, daily, violence.
Sending hugs to you! I hope this tragedy somehow brings your community closer together.
Age: 55. 5' 8" SW 345 lbs. RNY on 2/29/16 at UVA w/ Dr. Hallowell.
Month 1 - 3/29/16: 319 (25 lbs. lost) | Month 2 - 4/27/16: 314 (5 lbs. lost) |
Month 3 - 5/29/16: 303 (12 lbs. lost) | Month 4 - 6/28/16: 293 (10 lbs. lost)
Month 5 - 7/28/16: 289 (4 lbs lost) | Month 6 - 8/28/16: 282 (7 lbs. lost) |
Month 7 - 9/27/16: 278 (4 lbs lost)
How desperately sad.
In my youth, I desperately wanted to believe that everything had a reason -- that there was some greater purpose in human suffering. As I've matured and experienced the ups and downs of life, I've come to find that tragedies often lead to nothing bigger nor better. The whole casual narrative of human growth is almost mythical.
I am sorry for your community.
"What you eat in private, you wear in public." --- Kat
