Am I being selfish?
well the 1st thing I would say to you is don't feel bad about your thoughts and feelings there yours so own them and its ok your having them dont beat yourself up about them. And second I would say I am sure you love your mom very much and want what's best for her so support her the way you know how. Having someone to walk this journey with you will be awesome ?.
Grey
Yes, you are being selfish. Her surgery and health will not somehow diminish your own. And you'll have awesome experiences to share together.
VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)
Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170
TrendWeight | Food Blog (sort of functional) | Journal (down for maintenance)
You have modeled success for your Mom. She probably never thought of it as a real option until she watched you. There are 2 people I know who are going through the process right now of getting approved for surgery and I know part of the reason is they watched me lose. One is my friends daughter, and one is one of my very best friends....
Our feelings are our feelings... we just have to figure them out sometimes.
My sister and I have both always struggled with our weight, but Me more than her. I was always the "fat sister"... well I am now the thin sister, so I fully expect her to secretly be doing something drastic (she lives cross country from me so I don't always see her) or crash diet and show up skinnier the next time I see her. Families can drive us crazy...
Cynthia 5'11" RNY 7/23/2014
Goal reached 17 months. 220lb Weight Loss
Plastic Surgery Dr. Joseph Michaels - LBL and Hernia Repair 2/29/16, Arm Lift, BL, 5/2/16, Leg Lift 7/25/16
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You are a living, breathing role model. You may have inspired people you don't know to investigate WLS.
You cannot stop people from following where you have led and it's probably not fair to hold it against them.
You may need to be content with being a LEADER, a veritable Pied Piper of WLS, rather a one and only one person you know who had the surgery.
Sharon 
Sounds like your Mom always put you though challenges! I don't know your situation very well. But to me it sounds like she put u through a lot! You have nothing to prove to her just yourself! You will do better in life you let that hatered go..... Become your own person for you and don't be like that person that put u down for years!
