Dancing in irreverence

I danced today, for the first time in 20 years . In my living room with everyone gone, just me and my dog, and legs strong once more. I laughed for the first time in 20 years today. While looking at myself in the bathroom mirror and seeing the new me beginning to emerge.

I fell down in the forest today, while on my daily walk. I jumped up quick, unharmed and amazed, that I was able to do that. I loved myself for a moment today, when I put down the shame I've carried for 20 years. My family looked at me different today. when they saw that I was trying as hard as I could to do something for myself.

I gave up all my lifelong friends today, what you eat and drink really does matter to some people. I met a whole new group of people today, who are more aligned with the new me. I cut myself a break today, no more hating myself for being so big.

I danced in irreverence today, because I now can! I chose to make today matter to me. I do all these things because I choose life today. To those who choose to live today..................DANCE!!!

Your post brought a lump to my throat. All the best to you as you begin to love yourself again. After that comes forgiveness. But today, you dance. 

So cool... Congratulations... 

I had to give up on some people...  I does not bother me what others eat. But it bothers me when others try to make me feel bad about my food choices or try to impose their eating habits on me.. That is a lack of respect... I don't do that anymore.  Good for you... Keep working on it... And dancing... 

I am glad you danced. I have to say that was one of my favorite things to do. I can dance all night without lying saying I hurt my back or I saying I wasn't feeling well. 

I have said goodbye to some of my friends. They were just eating buddies and drinking buddies. 

Congratulations on the NSVs. 

Loving yourself is so important.